im back..... i think

[Anony18]

Thanks @outlander - what colour are your gumboots out of curiosity? Do they have nice patterns too?

[outlander]

Haha i dont wear them much i actually just wear thongs and today they were bright light blue. Its rare i wear boots at all and some of the time i ride my horses barefoot too @Anony18

[Anony18]

Haha @outlander - how do you ride barefooted? Foreign concept to me...riding horses is a foreign concept in the first place. 

[outlander]

I ride the same way as i would with boots lol
I use to take my horses to the beach @Anony18 and id ride in shorts barefoot and no saddle so we could go in the water

[Anony18]

Well that shows how experienced you are compared to me @outlander I just imagine you just jumping on the horse bare back, no saddle and riding it like that at the beach!

Oh I'm loving your profile pic! 

[outlander]

Do u realise what it actuslly is @Anony18 its not just an eye....

And yeah im not that brave now i hardley ride anymore now

[Anony18]

I know @outlander that is why i love it. It sends such a strong message. I see your vulnerability yet bravery for asking for help. I hope it does not offend you that i love it. Am aware this may sound odd but the pictures and paintings that I love the most are not the ones that paint a happy picture. I like all pictures but I love those that you can see the vulnerability, the sadness or pain of the artist as they paint cause those are the raw emotions and the true emotions that speak to me.  

[outlander]

thank you @Anony18 

no im not offended at all- im glad you can see the menaing though i dont think its bravery

i seen it more as asking for help more in the real world becuase im struglging so much yet im invisible to everyone- yet if they looked closley they would see

does that make sense

[Anony18]

Yes it makes perfect sense @outlander Well to me my friend you are brave. It is not easy asking for help from others when we are struggling. But I get where you coming from given how you mention you try ask the people who are physically in person in your life for help but they don't see you or recognise the need to support you. I really hope one day and soon there be that person for you. But in meantime, I hope you find comfort of your family on the forums. 

[outlander]

thank you @Anony18 for everything esp being here for me and hearing me and listening