Battles

[MJG017]

@Dreamy 

I'm convinced that constant stress and anxiety messes with our short term memory.  I've noticed it a lot lately.  Forgetting simple things, struggling to recall if something I did was yesterday or 2 days ago... the list goes on and on.  I know i'm getting older, but as my stress an anxiety has gotten worse recently, my memory seems to have gotten worse at the same time.  I'm sure it;s not a coincidence. 

So no solutions for you unfortunately, just that you're not the only one experiencing this.  So you don't need to feel alone in it.  I was going to say something else... but I forgot what it was. 🤣

[Dreamy]

@MJG017 yes stress and anxiety really does have a big impact on the short term memory. Heck I can't remember what I did yesterday or was it yesterday, maybe it was the day before 😂. 

We can be the forgetful buddies 😂. I'm really procrastinating here, was almost ready to go then put something in the bin and thought perhaps i should clean that first, it was a half empty bag but I've taken it out and washed the bin out 😂

[MJG017]

@Dreamy 

I actually got off my butt this morning and started some 3D prints for someone that I offered to do.  The problem with it i've started it and now there's nothing to do but wait.  I feel like going in and asking the printer if there's anything I can do to help. 🤣

Oh, the ducks were out there when I went over to turn the printer on, so I fed them.  So i guess it has been a more productive morning than I thought!  I'd go to bed after all this activity, if it wasn't for dreading the whole thought of it! 😁

[Dreamy]

@MJG017 look at you being productive, I need some new 3d printed things 😂. It's like watching grass grow, fascinating but so slow 😂. 

Oh the duckies, I'm wearing my duck socks today 😂. Bed sounds so appealing but yes it can be a dreadful thought, plus then you might not sleep tonight. 

Alright I'm going to the shops, you're coming with me, you'll be in my pocket 😂

[Dreamy]

@MJG017 ok so we aren't off to a good start. I'm having a panic attack, the same shop I went to a while ago that I had issues with security just gave me a hard time and then as I was walking out the things I had purchased set off the security alarms and the guard came chasing after me and thoroughly checked my bag and my receipt. I'm fighting back tears right now. 

[MJG017]

@Dreamy 

Oh those security things p1ss me right off.  Most places just seem to ignore them, but I always get anxious walking through them!  We've all been caught out where the checkout person doesn't deactivate the chip or whatever they have to do!  It happens so often, like I said everyone just seems to ignore them when they go off.

Maybe they think you look suspicious, because you seem and look nervous.  Which is completely unfair for someone with severe anxiety like you have.  I know it's not something you want to do, but maybe letting them know that you do have anxiety and they security really makes it so much harder for you.  Maybe they will make it easier for you in future so you at least don't have to worry about being accosted by an overeager security person.  It sucks that it's just another thing you have to deal with that makes an already challenging task even worse.  Even mentioning it to your GP or other medical people, maybe they can contact this store on your behalf and tell them to pull their heads in.  Was there at least an apology when they found you hadn't tried to nick anything?

[MJG017]

@Dreamy 

memory acting up again....

I forgot to mention a guy from the support group had invited me out to see some band in Semaphore tonight.  So my day is now going out to see a band!  How do I get myself into these things!  They seem like an old band, so it may not be terrible... and I've been assured if we get there early I can sit down.  Wish me luck! 

[Dreamy]

@MJG017 yeah most other places don't give it a second look cos they've just seen you go through and pay for things. But this one place well we know it's not the first time this has happened. 

I try not to look nervous or suspicious but i guess my anxiety probably makes that hard to hide. It's the fact that I wear my sunflower lanyard for hidden disabilities and yet they still do this to me. I really need to get some things made up to put on my lanyard so people can actually understand my disabilities. Nope no apology at all, even when he waved the item through the scanner it beeped he still continued to check the rest of my stuff including my personal bag. 

[Dreamy]

@MJG017 oh that could be a good night. You like the punishment of being in an overcrowded area, having to be around people 😂. I wish you all the luck in the world, I do hope you enjoy it 😊

[MJG017]

@Dreamy 

Apparently its quite a small place so hopefully not too crowded.  It's some old bad called Woy Woy or Hoy Hoy... Something like that.  I've been told if we get there a bit early I can sit.  If I have to stand I'll be going outside to find a seat after about 10mins.