Sounds like you are looking for a spiritual kind of community, @greenpea, with perhaps a questioning kind of philosophy based in rational thinking. Or a community where different views on spirituality are welcomed.
When I was younger I was searching for something like that and got involved with a couple of spiritual sects for a while. Also, Buddhism I was drawn to. I particularly like group meditation. That makes meditation so much easier and more rewarding for me.
But I've never really wanted to 'join' any spiritual group, so I've kind of just been drawn to people with somewhat similar views on these matters, or at least open enough to discuss the issues and reach some understanding of each other, and learn something spiritual that way. And be able to laugh about differences between us too. This is C and my friend mainly, but other people I've met in the past.
The first thing that came to mind is Theosophy, which is not so much based in rationality. But is about embracing all spiritual paths and learning from the ones we are drawn to or come in contact with by chance.
My highest recommendation would be some kind of group meditation. It's so relaxing and wonderful at times.
I seem to remember though that maybe you are not into meditation?
These are just thoughts off the top of my head. ox
