A long rave

[eth]

Hi @outlander  just saw your post but haven't had a notification of it yet.  I hope today is going well for you so far.

[Exoplanet]

Hello Everyone 

Today's the day the fencing contractor briefly mentioned they'll come out to do a quote. So the Universe has a chance to lift my spirits a little, just having them show up would do that; it could lift  them a lot & have that quote be resonable & give me something to look forward to. But from my lifes experiences I've learnt not to hope too much, that just makes you feel worse if things don't turn out; the realistic side of me doesn't expect to be lifted.

I enjoyed hearing about you going to the art show Mazy  & the adventure of getting lost in the fog  

I didn't know it was a full moon last night Eth, but I did find myself looking up at the sky, it was particularly beautiful. Though it's been a little overcast the past few days, I've run out of power each night - late, late enough to think, oh well that's definately something telling me it's time for bed 

Here's to accepting the past

Seeing the present

& allowing a little hope for the future 

@Mazarita @outlander @eth @Maggie @Sans911

[Mazarita]

He is an interesting person, and kind and affectionate, @eth. There are times when I wonder about the pair of us being celibate. But, when I think about it, I remember saying years ago that I wanted a 'companion in life' more than a boyfriend. Looks like my wish has come true. I do feel lucky.

On the whole, I tend to avoid 'teachers'. I prefer to choose my own learning, often when people are not actively teaching me anything at all. I think the most profound learning comes from sharing our humanity and learning from each other, even if we can't describe what it is we've learned. In a way, everyone is my teacher.

That ungrounded feeling is what stopped my early forays into wiccan spells. It revved me up too much to do that, felt my energy was going to explode out of my body. Just didn't feel good, so I stopped it.

[Mazarita]

Hi @Exoplanet  

Ah, forgot that today is Friday. And you can't very well take a break from fencing worries if you're waiting around to see if the quote people turn up. Fingers crossed and lots of wishing that they do. If not, they are just b*stards and probably wouldn't have done a decent job anyway. I know what you mean about not getting hopes too high. I kind of do the same. Try to keep myself balanced and grounded in my expectations, rather than always hoping for something better. I want to be content with the here and now as much as possible. Sometimes harder to be that way than others. I wonder if you, me and @eth might all have been looking at the moon at the same time. These thoughts make me smile. Cool that you are taking the loss of generator power as a signal to go to bed. How's your sleep been lately. I had a great long sleep last night. A few wake-breaks as usual, but I was much more sleepy in them, so I couldn't manage getting on the forum (which is probably a good thing for my sleep). Still having very late nights though about every second night. Not going to worry too much about it. At the same time, I still face my head in the direction of more balanced sleep. I like your saying at the end of your post. 

[eth]

@Mazarita  That's why I'm not digging up that poem - don't want to risk getting 'revved up'.  I am telling myself it's just the past, not something I have to still be affected by.  I agree with you about learning from everyone we meet.

I have said the same thing about having a companion, not necessarily a lover.  But currently I am doing better with neither.  

The last phone I had - a samsung android - said 'Life Companion' on the home screen!! I used to joke that I'd always wanted one and now I had it!

[eth]

Hi @Exoplanet  I hope the contractors turn up today and give you a decent quote.  I love your last 3 lines too.

[eth]

Heading out now.  Catch you sooner or later.  Have a good afternoon @Mazarita @Exoplanet.

[Mazarita]

Haha, the robots are taking over, even when it comes to being our 'life companions', @eth! I am finding celibacy (which has been going on for years now), rather more relaxing than my previous rampant sexuality when manic. It also removes a level of serious complication in the relationship. As you know, C and I were once connected in that way but no longer. Our friendship is so much lighter and more peaceful for it. I guess the fact that I had such an active sexual life for many years means I miss it less now. If I hadn't had that, I probably would be more hungry for it now.

[Mazarita]

Have a great day, @eth. We can continue this deep conversation later. 

I'm getting off here now too. Time to get dressed and do something with the day. 

[Exoplanet]

My sleep pattern has been fine for a while now Mazy, I took some tablets prescribed by the doctor for a month & it worked. The doctor seemed concerned about my stopping them, but it's all been good  It's good to hear you had a great long sleep last night & that your wake-breaks left you too sleepy to get on the forum  Even with the longer bi-nights I agree it appears to be heading in the right direction for a more balanced sleep pattern. 

Love to you Maz  @Mazarita