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[Maggie]

I hope it goes well too @utopia💛💛💛

[Faith-and-Hope]

Take car on the road @utopia ..... will be thinking of you, hoping for a good outcome.

[Faith-and-Hope]

Well, that typo was pretty funny ..... I should hope you took the car on the road @utopia ..... 😏 ..... I missed that one !!

[utopia]

Just got home. Was a long day for a 30 minute consult. He filled out the CL paperwork. Stating it is a temporary exacerbation of a permanent condition.
Estimate of time patient won't be able to study or work? He ticked the 13 to 24 month box. Wow.
He also increased my AD again. Now double the recommended dose. I start tomorrow.
He's not worried about my lack of memory / memory fog. He said it's due to the depressionand anxiety.
He asked me if I'm crying a lot. I said I rarely cry. Think the meds block that.
I explained about the white coat syndrome and the anxiety causing chest pain.
Then I left ready to come home but the freeway entrance was shut. So I got lost for a full hour driving around the inner city trying to find my way to another freeway entry. My ph battery was low so couldn't google maps.
I asked a man on the street. He directed me - but it's only entry back to the city. 15 minutes later after crossing over the top of the freeway with no entry ramp. I stopped at a service station. The guy gave me directions from where I'd just been. No entry ramp leading away from the city.
Finally I made it onto the freeway, but I didn't recognise the normal landmarks and was doubting I was even on the right freeway. Roadworks and high stress. I didn't recognise anything.
Eventually that freeway turned into my freeway. That's when I felt a single tear slide down my cheek.
I'm now going to sleep for a few hours.
I'm exhausted. Physically. But even more so emotionally.

[Appleblossom]

@utopia 

[Bella1978]

@utopia

Hi sweetheart, just catching up on your thread from last night. Im so sorry you had so much going on in your head after we messaged each other, sorry I wasn’t there for you.

You had such a long day. how do you feel about what the psychiatrist said? Your journey home sounds like it was a nightmare for you but I am glad you got home safe.

I do think the meds can cause our emotions to dull down to the extent that we don’t cry. I didn’t see my mum cry for a very long time. First time was last year and it was so foreign to me. Im the opposite! Lol … cry cry cry hehe

I hope you are still having a snooze and wake up feeling better.

Please let me know how you are feeling when you wake up. Thinking of you

*hugs*

xx

[Faith-and-Hope]

Does sound like a nightmare on the freeway @utopia ..... and guessing you’re a bit shell-shocked from the pdoc appt too .... even if it’s good news re the Centrelink paperwork, it still a lot to take in.

I hope you’ve had a good rest and a chance to catch your breath at least.

Hugs Hon ..... ❤️

[utopia]

Thanks for the beautiful pictures @Appleblossom.
@Bella1978 - he confirmed what my psychologist said. I have Major Depression. I will always have it. I will have periods of being well and periods of sickness.
Before my workplace incident - I was on the lowest dose possible. Tomorrow it will be 8 times that dose.
Psych says it is most likely in my genes (depression). Not good to hear.
Am still tired. Son home from work. All good here.

[Maggie]

@utopia Sorry yesterday was such a tough one in so many ways. I hope you got some sleep. 💛💛

[utopia]

My case manager took the CentreLink Medical Cert into the CentreLink office. Then called me and said it's all okay.  Payments will continue as normal.  So that's good.