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[utopia]

Thank you everyone @Appleblossom @Shaz51 @Bella1978 @Owlunar 

Yes the confirmation of the Diagnosis was very distressing. But as I often do, I freak out and think of the worst scenarios. Thus increasing my distress.

I had a great appointment with my psychologist today. He focused on praising me for doing the ParkRun. Even though I know how that therapy works, after a while, I stopped being negative with him being predictable and actually started to listen to what he was saying.

He then explained how Navy Seals and Special Operation forces are trained to cope with high levels of stressful situations. He explained it and then said, that's what we do with you now. Retrain your thinking to be able to cope with 'everyday' stresses.

This way, I will have long long periods of remision and fewer depression episodes and of les strength. So i'll try and focus on those words.

So rather than beat myself up with all the things i'm not doing - I'm to congratulate myself when I get out of bed before 10. When I do any washing. Any walking. Any socialising. I'm to talk that up - make it bigger - to get my brain to focus on the feel good hormones - so that it increases my motivaation to do more - because my brain wants that rush of being successful.

Not easy. Please remind me when I falter into negative talk.

Feeling really positive.

[Faith-and-Hope]

❤️ @utopia

[Owlunar]

Hi @utopia

Those ideas sound pretty good to me - I need to congratuate myself more - I don't care what time I get up actually because I make up for time at night - but yes - getting up and starting the day instead of reading my books too fast sounds like a good idea

Let's see how we go together - I took a walk today - tidied the kitchen which was a real mess when I got up - emptied the litter tray - I hate do that because I have trouble bending over but I think how horrible it must be for the cat when I don't - I would hate it - what else?  took all the rubbish out - Cooked pumpkin and parsnips with crumbed fish for dinner - that was a new meal - sometimes I wish I could find a book - recipes for one - and perhaps I should write that myself - I have a few ideas but I am sure other people have their own preferences when they live alone

It seems you are coming to terms with your gloomy dx and I hope this is the case - I would argue with the therapist too - perhaps one reason I am not looking for another one right now - I am planning to go through the rotten annniversaries on my own again - I have before - I did last year

All the best Utopia - I know waking up must be pretty horrible - it is for me at this time of year - sending hugs

Dec

[Shaz51]

hugs @utopia 

[utopia]

@Shaz51@Owlunar@Faith-and-Hope

Thank you. 

Yes @dec - Ithink when our brain is getting used to all the negative talk we tell ourselves - that it's really important to up talk and celebrate all the little things we achieve. And not focus on what we didn't achieve. 

Good mental health needs to be practiced all the time when we have a MI. At the moment this does not come naturally to me. So practice is going to be necessary. 

My achiements today.

Out of bed - drove son to school for first day of his exams.

Fed dogs.

Checked on mums dog.

Drove sons gf to work.

Talked with son about his 2 exams today and how he felt about them.

Kept my cool and explained things clearly with regard to son breaking his grounding.

(did more than I thought).

[Shaz51]

that is a good day @utopia

talk and celebrate all the little things we achieve. And not focus on what we didn't achieve-- ye mr shaz does his at the end of the day , tells me what he has not achieve , but I try to tell him on what he has achieve

so sending you knowing hugs

[Faith-and-Hope]

Well done @utopia ❣️

@Shaz51 👋

[utopia]

@Shaz51  - Mr shaz is very lucky to have you. 

[Mazarita]

Totally agree with talking up the small things, @utopia. It's been said of me that I am my own worst enemy. I'm trying to be my friend. So great to hear you sounding so much inspired after your psychologist appointment. 

[utopia]

@Mazarita. Yes I've been my own worst enemy too. I self sabotage. Don't think I deserve to be better. And I've been listening to this negative self talk for too long. 

Time to change.