Hi @BlueBay
Life's tough - I can hear you - and you have had all these tests and you have high cholesterol. Darn - but you have a choice - you can take medication or watch what you eat - and I know neither is welcome. What else can you do though -
I have the feeling as if you are in a maze and keep confronting a wall and can't find your way out. It must be hard - it's no fun at home in the Crowded House with the lockdown and level four only half way through - and the predictions of not getting back to normal life for months or longer is - darn - depressing.
Day by day is okay for me but when I hear that we might be curtailed at Christmas Time I do feel snared - it will get everyone somewhere - it's is a tough time and at least I am alone which must be easier than being in a houseful
So - my suggestion is to stay where you are for the time being where it is at least peaceful. I know you are unhappy - and I feel for you wishing there was something I could do or even say - whatever could help you when life is just hard for you
But I sincerely believe you are feeling better than you were a couple of years ago. I do remember asking you - a long time ago - what small things you would change to help yourself feel a little less unhappy - sometimes -
There's your grand-daughter - and your music and colouring in. You can take a walk along the beach while you still live there - spring is coming and I do know - the weather has been really bad over the weekend
I am thinking of you -
Dec
