Living with Ourselves

[Sophia1]

sunrise over cape byron nsw

[Owlunar]

That is a beautiful pic @Sophia1

Photos like that are amazing and along with other things having my photos is one of the positive things in my life - I can see beauty but alas - I am not able to reproduce what I see so clearly - so I take snaps and with the apps I had on one of my old computers I was actually able to change the colours of the clouds - I still have them stored somewhere here

I know how life circumstances - whatever form they take - can really sap our resolved and ability - it's strange but through the worst years of my life I kept studying at university and worked and went out private tutoring - sometimes the whole lot collapsed and I couldn't even get up in the morning - I couldn't do the housework - I would need a hospital admission - but I would always get back to studying part-time and have an Honours Degree

But I really do know how shut-down we can get - that time of my life passed but I know how destructive it can be and it makes me wonder how this happens - and I know it does.

So just as I read a lot of what is written here even when I have no idea how to respond - I remember how people were in hospital - and how many more women than men were respresented. Also - how many women have poor self-esteem and poor self-respect. I have an idea or three of why this is and yet have not written much about it - I guess because the reasons differ

Somehow I broke away from it and for long enough to know it can happen - but I haven't forgotten the past either - there is a difference between reactive depression and endogenous depression - and if the cause of reactive depression is removed then a person has a good chance of recovery

Why are women over-represented though - this could be a good subject to discuss - I just don't feel like starting it myself

Dec

[Zoe7]

I have been offline for a couple of days @Sophia1 - a very long and tricky day yesterday with DBT and appointments all day - still feeling a bit overwhelmed and exhausted but just wanted to check in with you and let you know I have been thinking about you - hope you are faring ok today 

[Owlunar]

thank you for the offer of tagging me....makes me teary shucks....being remembered or something...well it is lovely anyway..xxx

Hi @Sophia1

That really touches me - of course I remember you - I don't reel like using the computer anymore right now - but I will tag you when I write more in the Night Sky Guide again - maybe later

Dec

[Sophia1]

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@Zoe7 wrote:

I have been offline for a couple of days @Sophia1 - a very long and tricky day yesterday with DBT and appointments all day - still feeling a bit overwhelmed and exhausted but just wanted to check in with you and let you know I have been thinking about you - hope you are faring ok today 

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@Zoe7

That was a full on day......I understand how drained you would have felt...

[Sophia1]

@Owlunar

Thank you..

I was actually able to get my body in gear earlier and had no appointments until late afternoon...so husband and I grabbed the opportunity to do the hour drive to the city and get some things done that we have not been able to...

home and worn out...

would like to reply to you at length when I have more energy and far less fog....

take care 

[Sophia1]

good morning @Zoe7 @Mazarita @greenpea @eth @CheerBear 

Are you sleeping in?    hmmmmm...

a mischievous group of green characters...butterflies....dancing.....healing....aliens....in an alternative fermented fuel base.....green peamobile crammed with 5 manic characters...moving at the speed of light across states....the bass strait...did you pass the barrier reef?   I hope you didn't knock over the apostles.....

I was in such a giggling state reading of their antics that I then could not get to sleep...on such a high....discovered this morning had not taken my sleeping pill ....as was distracted??   up at 7am to discover one green figure still climbing the walls and discussing the discovery of wildlife in long term rigor mortis state....needless to say in full details...maggots!   then it went to bats....

I might add that I was trying to eat my breakfast at the computer desk...that will teach me not to sit at the dining room table..

an extremely interesting...effective alternative to conventional methods in reducing the state of depression...

a huge thank you to all concerned who were totally non the wiser apart from the keen eye of Zoe who spotted me hiding behind a lamp post....I wonder if there was a light at the top?

[Zoe7]

So pleased you found our antics last night giggle worthy @Sophia1 It was a great stress reliever for me - made the night so much easier to get through. Sorry that we kept you awake though lol

It is great when a group of people can get together in sucha way and provide 'entertainment' for others - we often forget that there is a lighter side to life when we are struggling so it was lovely to have the other guys there to have some fun with - you are right @Sophia1 - sucha  good thing to counteract depression - even if it is only for a little while.

Glad you were following along and it helped you too 

[eth]

 @Sophia1  Hi and good morning.  I didn't go on the all night ride with the others.  Took my meds like a good girl and went to sleep around 9.30pm.  Couldn't risk getting over stimulated.  And too many pages on ALR for me to catch up this morning.

Hope that missing your meds doesn't cause you any problems.

Have a good day x

[Sophia1]

@Zoe7 @eth 

due to my sleep deprived state at the time of writing the previous post laugh I forgot to mention the part of the evening entertainment where the matter of straws was discussed at great lengths....along with saving of koalas...

ask Zoe about koala straws..

all jokes aside medication missed was a sleeping tablet...haven't slept properly in several nights...will attempt to go to bed much earlier tonight and be sensible like yourself Eth...avoid the rave!

the lighthearted....effortless feeling of laughter coming from within was magic for me....so I am reminiscing with my unique sense of humour that only a minority of people get laugh...

eth I am currently listening to native american shamanic music......https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jsfdv0ebsNA