Living with Ourselves

[Sophia1]

Am so sorry @Former-Member

to hear about your daughter's fear...so very difficult for you both..

I know that you don't like to discuss it on here..you can talk to someone at lifeline..completely anonymous..

you don't need to give your name even..

I have used them several times since my operation and mum issue..I can also talk about my family member...they really have helped me...it does not make the situation go away...it helps lift the load that I carry daily

thinking of you both..

talk to me whenever you want to..about anything..

bless you both xx

[Sophia1]

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@Former-Member

[Sophia1]

@outlander

The bell thingy is finally working plus the keyboard

😉🤕😌🙃💚💜♥️🐴:face_with_rolling_eyes:

[Sophia1]

@outlander

Oh goodness look at the tome I must try to get some sleep

hope that you are able to sleep also

speak tomorrow if we have internet

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[outlander]

Goodnight @Sophia1 i hope your pain settles down soon xoxo

[Former-Member]

Thanks @Sophia1

Lovely that you show such concern and care, despite what you’re going through. 

How are you feeling this morning?

My sleep was restless. Lots of panic attacks. 

I try to not think about the situation with d. I try to numb myself. Not so easy. 

I go through the what if’s, why’s, etc and it doesn’t help. So I try to pretend it’s not happening. 

It really is devastating. 

But I have to try not to think about it. 

I really need coffee and toast. But I don’t want to wake D. She needs rest, sleep to keep on top of it all. Worries me when she sleeps late, especially after yesterday. 😢

Any plans for your day?

💜💖🌺🌷🌸

[Sophia1]

Hello @Former-Member

I can relate to the constant concerns re the health of your daughter..

Your natural..loving maternal instincts are kicking in...

I also know that you realise worry is an emotion that serves no purpose even though it is so hard to stop..

You might not remember ..I have a "family member" who lives interstate...has minimal contact  one way....this is not something that I can change..I cannot bear to think what is going to happen to him..he will not come back here...

I work hard at thinking about today only..then I can manage..

when my thoughts travel to the future..the grief is too hard to bear..at these times I now ring lifeline....they have been extremely supportive in listening..I talk only about what I want...

I also discuss this same issue with my psychotherapist sometimes..

focus on today every day...other than appointment making etc..

do you have any support from medical people?💚💜♥️🌷🌹💝

[Sophia1]

Hello @outlander

It is so cold here that I have climbed back into bed with my electric blanket on...I have gloves on to write on my iPad..

I have medical appointment then pool this afternoon..

my younger son visited yesterday which was lovely...I bored him with photographs of most of my overseas family and grave yards and churches from my uk trip last year..we had a good laugh.

He thinks that I am a bit ghoulish with my fascination of graveyards laugh..

[outlander]

Morning @Sophia1
It got down to -4 here overnight and 6° at 8am this morning. Im sitting in front of the heater for abit longer before having to go out to horses etc

Good luck at your appt and i hope that pool is heated!

Lol dont worry im sure we all have weird fascinations

[Sophia1]

Hello

@Bunniekins

I know that you are busy with your mum today..

so no need to respond now...

hope that you can enjoy some of your time together..

lovely that you enjoyed son's birthday in such a fun..stress free way..

my younger son this year had so many different lunches with his dad's family that when I suggested going out for lunch he chose going to the pictures instead...

I can't even remember what we saw..month before op memory very hazy..

I enjoy our chats too so will try my best to remember to tag you..

yes am sticking mostly to this thread ..still fragile ..sensitive and vulnerable..

speak soon when you can🙃:face_with_rolling_eyes:😸