Living with Ourselves

[Oaktree]

@TAB @Sophia1 

Tonys bookkeeper is @Gemma13 

I hope they are well.

I miss them

[TAB]

yeah @Clawde  was  gone for ages, then came back  a bit more recently

@Sophia1  yes the World was a smaller place years ago re Angels

thanks re study and house. have friend in perth who is looking at homelessness after collapse of family business. they have a struggle ahead of them and its not easy to talk to them as they cant see their way out of it. they have gone on dole first time ever in their 50s and itis about the same amount as their rent it seems, despite landlord not having put their rent up for a few years where everyone else's gone up 50%

I am lucky to have house. my healths not been brilliant since we last talked. I cant get work I am capable of doing, well sometimes I want to. I should be getting another inheritance sometime this year which will help.Aunt in Germany died intestate, so began a big process of finding compulsory heirs and them having to either opt in or opt out. last I heard they still hadnt finalised heirs, who knows. and cousin robbed the estate blind as figured it should have gone to them. so courts have to sort that out yet. her house has been sold , finally, but is being used to pay costs or something. Mal Sehen wie as wird .. (on spur of moment, i opted in with the knowledge that all my siblings had opted out) so from being a trivial amount, it became a lot bigger amount, as I will get my fathers entire share now. 

[TAB]

Thanks @Oaktree 😊

[Jacques]

Hi Dearest @Sophia1 please don't apologize for the belated response, im glad you waited until you felt more comfortable and more at ease to send an extended reply.

Yes i really struggle allowing anyone to get close to me, i have been hurt so many times and just don't have the energy or the will to take the chance again. 

I struggle now with how rude and how angry people are today, it really scares me and seeing how society world wide is breaking down, i just can't cope with society as a whole even more so now. 

I still find pleasure in the flora and fauna in my yard and in the river close by, wild animals seem to be so at peace with who they are and how they live. they don't seem to have the need to judge others. 

I have so many fairy wrens, honey eaters, sparrows and minor birds. they love playing in the garden and i find such joy just listening to them even though most of the time i can't see them.

We are coming into Autumn so im looking forward to my viburnum's coming into flower i get so so many bees, both honey and native bees in them. i can walk right up to the shrubs and even put my hand in amongst the bees and they just go about their business without a care in the world.  

Im so glad you spend time with your son and time out even if it is just to do simple things. we all need a break in the cycle of being home. 

I really hope you have found your peace and are able to find ways to enjoy it, as with myself my life is not perfect but i have come to be grateful for what it is and make the most of my situation. 

hugs my dear friend, wishing you a wonderful afternoon.

Jacques

[Glisten]

@TAB @Sophia1 

@tonys partner the Bookkeeper. Uses @Gemma13 

Haven’t heard from either of them in a long while.

[EternalFlower]

Hi @Glisten How have you been?
I see @Sophia1  - a really special one. We are lucky to have Sophia. How are you?

I'm sorry, I come a year later and am asking all these questions - 

I just feel very attached to @tonys and in some ways he kept me alive 🙂

I hope everyone is doing okay

[Oaktree]

Hi @EternalFlower 

i have missed you.

How are you?

[EternalFlower]

hi Meggle, im sorry i remembered your older name, and didn't remember the new one. but I remembered once I saw the image. To me you are Meggle 🙂 @Oaktree 

[Oaktree]

Yes @EternalFlower 

You are right, I was Meggle. I had to change my name to abide by Sane’s rules. How have you been? It has been quite a while. I have been quite busy. I have started studying at tafe this year. That is going well but I have had some challenging times. It has been quite stressful at times. I am also seeing a private psychologist and we are dealing with some of my childhood trauma which has been difficult. I am surviving though. That’s the good thing about me, I am a survivor. A bit like a cockroach. But a nice cockroach. 

[EternalFlower]

hi @Oaktree i understand - sorry to bring it up. I was just a bit confused as for some reason I associate still with the older name. I remember you changing it now. Thanks for the reminder.
Hope things are well with your new trauma therapist. How is your husband? thanks for welcoming me back, I really appreciate it.