The Challenges of Mental Health Wellbeing

[outlander]

@Sans911 stay right away from those. Your here for a reason even if you dont know what that reason is right now. Your stuck in that vaccum hole that wipes everything good out.


I am very glad you can ring your psych, if it gets strong do you think you could give her a ring? even just a chat over the phone might help...
And a good safety plan too. Lets hope this cycle is a quick one and you can come back up before too long.

Do you know whats set these thoughts off at all?

[Sans911]

@Snowie

It's mostly you and @outlander

that carry me through over the last few months. I often imagine us sometime in the future when life is better for all of us, and we meet finally. We sit around drinking tea and coffee all night, eating mint slice biscuits and laughing & crying at this horrible time. I think that keeps me moving forward as well, that somehow, some way there might be a chance of meeting. And we'll be saying to each other 'wow, you're really tall @outlander

and you're so different, in a good way, than I imagined'.

[outlander]

Your forgetting watching bbt in there @Sans911

[Sans911]

Indeed I am @outlander

Thanks for that. Then that all nighter might turn into an all weekend, and we might need two packets of biscuits.

[Snowie]

@Sans911 then let's us carry you hun. Meeting up irl is a dream of mine too❣❣

[outlander]

And btw im a short arse i always need crates or chairs! lol @Sans911

If only there was a way huh. Virtual catchups will have to do for now

[Sans911]

I missed a post @outlander

What sets these thoughts off is changes in my support people. I don't cope with it at all.

As a welfare kid, I constantly had welfare officers, social workers, etc come and go so frequently that I was constantly repeating myself. And starting the cycle of connecting, trusting, etc every time. It's really hard, and I'm so affected by that now. I've been really teary today, and a little yesterday too. I know to some people I might come across as too dramatic, but it really feels like at times my world is ending.

And I've not been in this space of not knowing where to next? I've always had direction, and like you say 'I'm stuck in a vacuum hole that wipes everything good out'.

Not being able to have any real idea of where my life is heading sucks so much.

[Teej]

I react exactly the same way with losing support people @Sans911 and I could have written that exact post with the exception of childhood experiences. I’m about to have huge changes too with my treatment and care plan. It’s scaring the crap out of me and I’m experiencing lots of out of the blue strong s urges from nowhere but I’m in control of them for now. 

Hi @outlander, @Snowie 👋. 

[outlander]

I dont think your being dramatic at all @Sans911 this is something that is concerning you and that is ok. It sounds like its setting off those adandonment feelings or something similar is that right?


Do you think for tonight at least you can just accept that you don't need to know all the answers right now but rather work on getting through tonight ?

[Sans911]

Oh, I thought I read somewhere in here that you were tall @outlander

Oh well, we are both short arses then. Yes, I have a little step to reach the top of my wardrobe and other cupboards. 😄I'm about 5 foot nothing! And very round!

I don't know if @Snowie

is short or tall, slim or otherwise. I know I'll never be slender, so I just try to stay healthy as I can. I like my sweet foods way too much to ever give them up.