The Challenges of Mental Health Wellbeing

[Sans911]

I'm much the same @Snowie

Do you feel ready for home?

[Snowie]

Hugs @Sans911 💜

I think I am ready for home. I feel better than I did when I came in. 

[Appleblossom]

 Glad to hear that@Snowie 

@Sans911 

[Snowie]

Thanks @Appleblossom.

@Sans911 will say goodnight now. Have had my meds 

[Teej]

Wanna talk @Sans911? . I know bottling it all up won’t help if you are like me either. It’s going to come out somewhere. I’m a bit worried how it will if you are anything like me. Don’t need to talk specifics just get you out of your head. 💜🤗

[Zoe7]

Goodnight @Sans911 and @Teej My thoughts are with both of you 

[Sans911]

@TeejI don't know how, where or what to say really. I do know I am heading down a dark path that I probably don't need to take, but once I start on this and have put steps in place, I find it hard to turn back.I feel like I'm in bit of a vortex, empty in the middle, but everything swirling around the outside. My self-hate right now is at it's worst, I am totally digusted and ashamed of myself, my appearance, my inabilties to socialise without ackwardness. I don't want to be awake every day, I want to wipe out time, hours, days if I can. It's how you were recently weren't you? Do you still feel like that now?

[Sans911]

Goodnight @Zoe7 I hope your sleep is somewhat restful.

[Teej]

I think you just said it @Sans911. You are overwhelmed an in the vortex. I just had a shower for the first time in days. I am a complete mess but not quite as bad as I’ve been. I still put out a cry for help on here last night that luckily got taken down and I passed out not long after writing it. I was in danger of pushing it. I actually hate alcohol the way I’m doing it. It’s like medicine I have to wash down but it does the job when mixed. 

So how to stop the vortex? ....a word I relate to so much. You just talk about anything until it’s not as strong and your meds kick in. 

I have no easy answers to the things you are struggling with. Im kind of in the same place with socialising and feeling awkward. I get too intense or too aloof. Nothing like a bit of BPD splitting really. Just now this minute I just have hope that it gets better. ....to be continued 

[Teej]

Night @Zoe7 💜🤗🌙✨