General chit chat

[Former-Member]

😄 Real-time chat AGAIN Maz @Mazarita 🙂

PHEW! It's done! . . . & all good too, fabulous 😄

Now's the time you want your friend to visit! Whilst the place is next to Godliness 😄

Of course it's going to mess up again, it's a sign that you & C are alive 😄

Enjoy the space, the empty bench space, the floor space, the space that you have created 😄

It's Friday so it's an off-lead walk day, I think I'll go into town & check the P.O. & go to the library. I'm kinda hoping I'll start the genny & do some more clothes washing & I even dare to hope I might start the mow & do some of that late this afternoon - but I'm not going to put much pressure on myself for those tasks . . . I will for making my bed though! 😄

It's nice knowing you feel nice

Niqua

[Mazarita]

Sorry to hear about your hallucinations. That thing where you lose your filter on what you say is called 'disinhibition', @outlander. It's something I have to watch with my bipolar. If I don't I can end up acting in ways I wouldn't do otherwise too, to the extreme sometimes. It can be a side effect of some medications or a symptom of our mental health issues. Let's hope it doesn't continue happening with you. 

[Mazarita]

Haha, we are so in sync, Niqua, that we keep posting at the same time! 

Your day sounds good in the planning stage. I hope you get out the genny and mower too and achieve what you would like to be done. Always good though not to pressure too much so as to avoid anxiety and extra resistance getting in the way, (says me who has just pressured myself for a week getting housework done to insane standards )

Yes, I think I will do the trip today. But not just yet. 

[outlander]

I do get hallucinations quite abit however they arent often that bad like last night and its mostly the feeling of being watched and followed to the point last yr i smashed my new phone cause i thought people were tracking me. @Mazarita
And thank you for giving that a name. I am an honest person and ill give them my honest opinion but only if its asked but often i shrink away. In that state had of i had been talking to a bully for example there would have been no holding back.
I dont get into that state very often i tend to keep my thoughts to myself. It was happening here on the forums so had to be very careful the way i was phrasing things

[Mazarita]

Good that you are so aware of it, @outlander. You are going to be so ahead of the game as time goes on, in terms of your awareness of your mental health struggles, what they are and how to deal with them. 

[Former-Member]

Sorry to hear about what must have been a terrifying night Claire @outlander 

But despite the harsh night, I can still hear the positive tone and am glad that your alive You are a very special, unique individual; your struggles are real, your wants & needs are important . . . you are very worthwhile

And that chaotic blur continues for you, I'm guessing the rta is a hospital, so even with your Pop being Ok {which is great} you still have your caring role to fulfill. I cared for my Mother for 3 months, she was palliative; but the stress was so much that I had to make a deadline in my head - if she had lived longer than 6 months I would have to have hospitalized her; I knew I would not be able to take any more {mainly of my Father}. Caring is a very difficult role. I understand a little, how endless and infiniite it can seem.

3 consecutive days of work, I guess it's good to get it all done together like that. Do you like it that way? I used to do 3 on, 1 off, 4 on - of 10 hour night shifts; but the rules changed & they weren't allowed to continue those shifts like that. I actually preferred it that way, I got the fortnight done in a week! & it often took me a couple of days to get to sleep, then I might sleep for a couple of days . . . but without the consecutive days off - I couldn't do that, so I couldn't sleep & I got very ill.

I'm pretty good today Claire 🙂 I hope your day picks up, or probaly more to the point drops down . . . to a very restful nap somewhere along the day 🙂

Niqua

[outlander]

I still have lots and lots to learn @Mazarita just when i think ive worked it out something new happens! It never ends does it lol. But thank you ❤
How are you today?

[Mazarita]

Life is an ongoing learning experience, @outlander. That's how I've found it. The key for me is pacing myself moderately with things (including learning) whenever I can (don't always manage it still). I think that as long as we have life in us, no matter how old we are, there is still more to learn. Experience is a great teacher and you are in early here on the forum, picking up very valuable learning for the future. I have faith in your future. Not as a fairytale postcard, but as something much better than you have at the moment. Having said that, it does sound like things have overall improved since it's just you and your pop in the house for the most part. 

[outlander]

Im ok Niqua, things get rough sometimes and im not ok but im doing ok this past 2 weeks and thats a good start. Thank you for validating those feelings ❤

The rta isnt a hospital, its the roads and traffic service where we register the cars etc pop had to do his so i took him out there.
Caring is good but your right it can seem never ending and overwhelming esp when having to deal with my own stuff too.
I like the 3 consecutive days as then its out of the way sort of thing and keeps me occupied but i do tend to tire quickly since taking that long break from it. I didnt realise how much i was doing before!
I haven't actually done shift work more like the constant roles but i think if if was 10hr shifts i wouldnt like it so much as consecutive days but i guess tou dont particularly get a choice.
Im glad your going good today. Any more adventures coming up? @Former-Member

[Former-Member]

Everyday is an adventure Claire @outlander 🙂

Today I'm thinking of marching along a mechanical maze, full of flamable liquids, deliberately technicallly timed sparks, slippery oil & electricity! It'll give me the power to make the wonderful washing machine wash my clothes 😄 I might even use a simular method - flamable liquids, technical timing, oil & electricity - but with a much more mangling machine . . . the mower! - 4 spinning blades going at a million miles an hour - deadly adventure!!! 😄

I'm also going to take my puppies out into the World & let them risk their lives! Probably out in the State Forest, where I know there's fierce feral pigs & it's Australia so there's always snakes & spiders & other poisonious deadly creatures hiding in wait! 😉 A real Indianna Jane/Crocadile Niquadee thing going on there 😄

The most courageous thought I have for the day is to go into town, where there is a concentrated population of the most deadly creatures on the Planet!!! All a part of the 'everyday' life of this seasoned Adventurer 😄

Lots of love and smiles for you Claire

Niqua