im back..... i think

[outlander]

And i dont know ny concerns @STORMGRL101 im just absolutly terrified

[outlander]

@Owlunar
Im so scared and yes i was worried something like this was going to happen
I cant tell anyone in the real world either
I cant believe this is happening to me at 20 this is just too scary
This is not what i need after deciding to make plans the other night. Thankfully those urges have gone for now and im trying to keep it that way
Im am soo scared
Scared beyond belief abd i feel so alone
I know people are on here for me though
But i cant help feeling really isolated and scared scared scared

Im hoping your doing a little better but i want you to care for you first

[Owlunar]

In 6 months it will be nearly Chrismas @outlander

Wow - at this stage that seems an impossible time - but it will pass and I think you will used to the idea after you have shaken all the freakiness out by being scared and all the scary-stuff by being freaked

But nothing has to happen yet - that's a relief -

How are the pains in your tummy going?

Dec

[Owlunar]

I am okay @outlander

I just had a bad spell - I got cold and I felt really bad about my mother - there us nothing to do there - only readjust my thoughts on the subject - there are many things she has done that allow me to feel angry - but I can allow this now and again - it doesn't happen often

Also I have a bit of a cold - let's hope it clears up quickly - so yes - I am pretty much back to normal but I think I need an early night - I didn't sleep much last night

Having those abnormal cervival cells is not something you need to be ashamed of - but the point is that you do - but seeing as you don't feel you can trust anyone in your world about this - it won't be something you have to discuss now and again - peopple just don't know

And I could not have told my mother either - if that helps - I do understand -

It's a lonely scary place you are in

Dec

[Anony18]

@outlander - having a result like that is scary. I been there when I was mid 20s though and I told no one. I kept it quiet and just researched and it scared me alot alright especially when I had to do that pap smear again a year later. 6 months seems like forever but hopefully time will pass by quickly. Try (being the key word here!) to let it not concern you. We can just hope it goes away. One step at the time is all I can say - though it may not be the most comforting words. 

[Phoenix_Rising]

Hi @outlander,

I can hear how scared you are and that is totally understandable. Any sort of "abnormal" result would freak me out too. However, I do know that the whole purpose of pap smears is that they are able to pick up abnormalities before the abnormalities become a major problem. I know how scary this whole process is for you and it sucks that you will need to have another test in six months. But even though the process totally sucks, try not to fret about what the abnormal result actually means. My understanding is that when any abnormalities are picked up early (as yours clearly have, given you have to wait six months) they can be sorted out relatively easily. It is definitely an awesome thing that you faced your fear and got the pap smear done @outlander. You are proactively taking care of your health because you are worth looking after.

[Former-Member]

I've just popped on and read your post @outlander, and read through the pages from your appointment with the Doctor. I understand your fear outlander, not knowing whether it will clear up or not is frightening. You have been very brave and done the right thing, your Doctor is now aware of the problem and knows what to do, what to watch for. Seeking medical attention early was the best thing you could have done, continuing with that professional help is the best thing for you to do. Try to reduce your stress, which I know you do, try to keep in your mind the positive - it may go away on it's own.

Sending you my love, and caring and positive healing

[Former-Member]

Hello @Owlunar

I'm sorry you've had a bad spell. I agree you have every right to feel your feelings (the good and the bad) and think it shows the wisdom of your avatar that it doesn't happen often. I hope your cold clears quickly and that your taking extra care of yourself for it (just a little friendly nag :)) An early night sounds like a good idea and hope it's a peaceful one for you. I haven't been out to look at the stars tonight, I've been a little 'slow, muddled . . . neurologically off?', but am starting to feel much better 🙂

Niqua

[outlander]

im still around guys @Former-Member@Phoenix_Rising@Anony18@Owlunar@STORMGRL101@Shaz51

just getting around to replying and reading the responses

[Owlunar]

HHi Niqua

Definitely into self-care - during the night I had a few vit c tablets and I have been eating a lot of fruit too - as well as eating properly after the short period I had with not appetite

So lots of soup and wholemeal bread rolls along with my meat and salad for dinner - it's a good idea to prepare food in the morning rather than wait until the evening when I don't feel like it - I have got my good habits back

And yes - and early night will be good - I have domestic help at 9.00am tomorrow but this is okay - this worker doesn't if I stay in bed - oh yes - I can do puzzles and read and what ever without walking around another person brandishing a vacuum cleaner

It is lovely that people come and clean for me - but it is also acknowledged that it can be intrusive - and then we have the Epic Lazy Person - I wonder what will happen to her - one of the girls who comes all the time said that kind of person gives all of them bad press - I understand that

So early to bed to night with some vix - and read and hopefully sleep all night without waking up to sniff

And I hope you are okay Niqua

Dec

@Former-Member