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[Former-Member]

Hi!  That’s very sad about your friends @Former-Member  💜

They are very blessed to have your support. It wouldn’t be easy for you. 

I’m glad you have distractions with your beading and embroidery. How’s the embroidery going? 

Is your daughter at home with you, or living with the guy?

Hi! @Former-Member and @Shaz51

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[Former-Member]

@Former-Member Hello my lovely - I do appreciate your posts. Thank you.

The embroidery really does serve as a good distraction - especially on wet and rainy days, otherwise I would be at my favourite place - the beach. I love walks in nature too. I can't tell you how happy creating this art makes me. I have a stitch friend in the US with a terminal untreatable (surgery wise) brain tumour - she looks forward to each day she has left so she can relish her cross stitching. For some it brings that joy. Hobbies are so important.

My daughter is still officially home - but she has been living with the creep for 3 weeks now. Come back occasionally for some things. She said she wants to make it official when she clears her debts. So not sure what is going on there. I have to let go as trying to pressuade her to dodge that bullet was falling on deaf eyes and stressing me out. She has to work it out. To be honest @Former-Member - we seem to get on better when living apart. When she movies out of home before she missed us greatly and was frequently in contact. But when with he creep she is civil but becomes colder. He is probably telling her to cut contact.

It's up to her - I believe it will work out for the best in the future and keep positive about it. My life now is mainly my work, art, friends and my husband. The more I am out there helping, the richer my life is. I enjoy my chats here too and appreciate those who post here. My life is never easy but the good in it and the love far outweighs the rest and keeps me balanced. I don't think of the future much. Just live for the day. How is yours going? 

[Former-Member]

Yes, it is good that you keep busy. @Former-Member

It's not good for me to be home all day, but some/most days I don't have the fight or energy to go anywhere.  I do try to get out though.  Not sure if that will happen today, as I don't have my car.

 I'm just about to hang the washing.  And i'll probably make a sheperds pie later.  Unfortunately I don't enjoy walking around our neighbourhood.  I do try and get to the beach for walks and have been going to the rainforest on occassions.  

But, I do notice that I am more depressed when I stay home all day.  I really need to discipline myself more.  Discipline disappeared while we were going through the turmoil of health issues. Now I need to change and get going.

I'm fairly sure that sleep meds aren't helping my energy levels in the day, but I really need them.  I can't take any other medication, so sleep meds are a relief for me at the end of the day.  I do have other meds for emergencies, but they definitely are only for emergencies.  They really make me feel tired, but I need them in my bag, just in case, lol.

Uni is on holidays for now, so I will keep myself busy with daughter, no doubt.  It is a relief to have a break from driving to and from from uni..  The roads are so super busy going to uni and i find it extremely stressful driving there and back.  

I really have to look at the good, as it is so easy to see the bad all the time and it certainly doesn't help.

We went for a huge walk the other day in a rainforest approx 45 minute drive away.  It's nearly a 11km walk.  I knew my daughter wanted to go the whole way, but I thought to myself, not today.  We have done it once before and it was long, up and down, round and round, lol.  We made it again, the whole way.  That was a huge acheivement for me and I am glad we did it.  Mind you once you get to a certain point on the walk there's no option but to go the whole way, so I tried not to think about the distance.  The views were amazing.  Had a nice dinner on the way home too.

Anyway, thought id add that little bit of positive.I had better get some things done now.  

Thanks for chatting.

I'll probably be back later.  

[Former-Member]

Oh wow, walking through the rainforest would of been epic! 11 klm is a long way though and would need to be in an energetic mood to do the whole round trip, but what a wonderful day out! I love the rainforest - where we are building on the sea is surrounded by national park and rainforest. Best of both worlds as it is a stone throw away from everything else we need. It's like a private nature getaway in the middle of city living. Were their ocean views on your rainforest walk? That would be magical - I am drooling. I would love it! But not so sure about 11 klm lol. We have such long walks here and never made it the whole way ☺️.

Most definitely becoming isolated at home all day does feed depression. I found that too - I like a few days where I stitch but like to get out equally as much. Not so much to shopping centres etc, but to where I work, at the beach, bushwalks, social outings or visiting friends. I am different where I do not like to travel far. It's just become too stressful for me now. I get uncomfortable in heavy traffic, a bit nervous. So I stay local - there is so much to do here and the beautiful ocean line - I don't need anything else. And where we are moving to is a gated community (golf course on the the water), where the residents get together weekly for dinner and have are outings for those wishing to join. I fit right in so am looking forward to making more friends and doing things. 

I still take sleep meds. They are all I take. Once my D levels improve more I will need them less (vitamin d deficiency causes insomnia). And will wean very slowly. But they cause me no side effects. My hair was starting to thin and eyesight was becoming weaker but that was also the vitamin D deficiency the doctor explained. My eyesight has already improved being on them a week - I am on 5000 ius a day, a huge amount because my levels were so low. 

I found self disclipine as in giving myself a shove to get out and do things and keep to a rountine a must in coping with my life. It really helps, as you have found. Getting out and connecting with others really does give me a boost, as does my cross stitch and beading. I don't think we were meant to be alone and isolated - that causes depression in anyone. So good to read you are getting out. Keep it up. Hopefully when you feel better you will go on that cruise - it will be good for you! I would join you if I could. 

I have to do some more stitching now - a lazy day today. Am taking advantage of it as my week is too busy to think about. Look forward to chatting more later 😘x

[oceangirl]

Hi @Former-Member

Just stoping by quickly and I will read back through posts soon to catch up on your news. I am feeling a bit tired today, otherwise I am good. Hope you're keeping well mt beautiful friend. Much love and aloha

[Former-Member]

Aloha @oceangirl - are you in Hawaii again? Possibly not due to the volcano eruptions but had to ask. How are you going? It's very wet and cold here so no chance of getting out for me today, so am going to do some more cross stitch and beading. Feeling relaxed for now.

Sorry to read you are feeling tired. How is Milo going? Are you taking a break from your studying? ❤️

[oceangirl]

It would be lovely to be in Hawaii atm- not on the big island where the valcano is but on the island of oahu (Waikiki Beach).

Glad you to hear you're feeling relaxed and doing your cross stitch and beading, how wonderful- any chance of the weather fining up soon. Milo has been really good. I'm just listening to my body and going to take it easy today. I have my volunteer work tomorrow. Milo is back to vet Tuesday and I am at my GP on Wednesday. My semester has finished and just waiting for results to come out, which is meant to be 30th June. I have placement just before the start of the next semester for two days. I will check back in later today to see how you are- have a lovely afternoon and evening...

[Former-Member]

Yes, ocean views @Former-Member 😮🐬🐠🐙🌴☀️  Amazing place. 

I’ve tried posting photos on here, but it says, file too large. I have no idea how to make the photos smaller. 

Your new place sounds amazing. 

Yes, 11km 😮. Not in a hurry to do it anytime soon. Knees were sore next day, lol. 

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Hi there @oceangirl 👋🌴🌸🌷🌼🌺🌻

[Former-Member]

I have had that problem here with downloading photos @Former-Member - nothing I could do about it to my knowledge. Not sure why some photos do this and some don't when using the same camera and distance etc??? Such a shame, would of loved to have seen your photos.

The new place is amazing @Former-Member - it's been a life long dream. I have worked so hard and suffered so much for this!!! Had so much faith years ago that one day it would happen. I nearly gave up a few times but now the dream is finally taking place.

My daughter just came home out of the blue. She does not look good at all - her hair u combed. She use to be so particular with her appearance. She has stated she can't afford to pay us rent or to repay us her debts. Just like that. I am giving her space. I know it sounds awful, but part of me wants her to move on. I can't deal with it anymore.....

[Former-Member]

I deserve happiness now as does my husband. I am ready to take it. What a dilemma. Below is photos of the nature that surrounds our new home @Former-Member@oceangirl@Shaz51@Appleblossom