I am- Overwhelmed & Traumatised I need your support!!

[Former-Member]

@outlander

Today has been more painful than other days. I have been waking up each morning depressed, & thinking wrong thoughts for a few months. This Chronic pain is draining, & I am noticing the changes in my attitude, & hope for a better future is something I am not positive about, anymore.

I needed to just get this out of my system, instead of bottling it up. You do not need to reply to this message. I am telling you this so that someone knows, if I try to tell anyone in my family they just think that I am a, morbid, depressed, person.

Which is their excuse, for not helping me. I don't want their help, nor their company anymore. I have lived so long now without them, it would be uncomfortable for me to be around any of them.

I will go for now, maybe things will be a little, or a lot, better tomorrow, maybe not. Which ever way it is tomorrow, I will deal with tomorrow, tomorrow!

Love & Hugs!

Bella XO   🙂

[Former-Member]

[outlander]

@Former-Member here if you need to talk but i understand if you dont. I dont mind listening ❤

[Former-Member]

@outlander

I know that you understand where I am coming from. I have been up & down, in my thoughts today, & moods.  I am tired now, I may have an afternoon sleep, for a couple of hours. I am going to start excersizing  starting tomorrow, as it makes me feel healthy. Nothing strenuious, just rowing, I have always loved the row machine. I purchased a new one 2 years ago, its still in the box & never been opened. I will get it out, & start using it this week. I will sketch more, I will go out once in a while for lunch, even if its by myself. I need to enjoy what I do have, as it could be taken from me, anytime. Then I will have something to get depressed about. I will believe for a miracle, even if I don't really feel like it. 

I am getting so tired now, I will be back on SF hopefully, later after my Dinner.

Thank you @outlander for always being their for me, as you see, not too many are. You are very Special to me.  You are the only one that visits me daily, & cares about me, the way that you do, & to be truthful, I need your friendship, & love. I believe you mean what you say, & you like who I am. Visa versa, outlander!

Love U!

Bella xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx & more!

[outlander]

Hi @Former-Member

Im sorry things are really hard atm. Pain is hard to deal with let alone mental health on top too. Have you considered online counselling for your pain? Theres a few places that offer Skype and some do home visits as well so you can get therapy too.

Doing some light exercise sounds good. Ive been really slack with my exercise latley.
Im always here for you Bella even when im offline, spirits travell you know.
Enjoy dinner and then come back, you can chat to me whenever you need ❤

[Former-Member]

@Adge

I prayed for you, & you would like my company & friendship you are so welcome to talk to me here in this Thread I started.

I know it's not as good as having a friend off line, but it's the best I can offer. I would appreciate getting to know you better, plus having your company.

GOD BLESS!

Love & Hugs!

Bella xo 🙂     <><<

[outlander]

@Former-Member

[Adge]

Good idea @Former-Member

Thanks.

Adge

[Former-Member]

WOW!
it's so overcrowded, & all over the place in that thread. I had to leave @outlander if you want talk here, you can. I do hope the Moderator can talk with you soon.
I am seriously concerned about your mental state, & you just need a break from all the negative & pain in your life. I do understand, I love you so much your pain hurts my heart.
Love & Hugs!
Bella xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx & more! 🙂

[outlander]

Thanks @Former-Member i need to go to work in a minute. Ill try to check in when i can.
I dont mean to hurt you im sorry