@Former-Memberfirstly NONE of it is your fault. not one bit of it and i know that is really hard to believe but it isnt your fault ok. what those other men done to you is on them, they make us beleive its our fault, make it a secret, make us feel ashamed, dirty, embarrassed, disgusted because they dont want to live with that guilt so they place it upon their victims and walk away like nothing ever happened. thats what they do, and that is not your fault.
the dreadful about trauma is when you release some of it even on here on the forums as you have done, its like opening a can of worms and once its released it can be hard to contain again. everything just flows out. sometimes out memories and thoughts from them get shoved so far down we dont understand where the nightmares are coming from.
often the horrible things happen to those with soft hearts, or kind and giving natures. people prey on that. they see it as a weakness but it really isnt.
Bella.. when these things were happening did you get any support from anyone?. are you getting some support or would you be willing to see someone to come and help you with these in the ways of a support worker or psych at all?
