I am struggling at the moment

[CheerBear]

Hi @Teej. I spent part of this morning going through my forum photos and moving some into that new album. It's been like looking back on a bit of a journey and there were so many memories in it all. Lots of feels (and SO many flowers and yarn photos 😆).

Here's one for you from way back when I first arrived at the forum. From memory it was one I shared with you in mind back then too.

(Except that when I clicked to upload from my new album there was nothing in it so it hasn't worked properly for me yet. Buuuut one step closer 👍)

Hoping today is OK for you. 

And adding to the hugs for you @Sans911 💗🤗

[Teej]

Thanks @CheerBear. It was nice to wake up to. I love that kind of humour. 

I completely lost the plot  last night when I went to try to sleep. Found myself struggling with urges and plans. When I woke up this morning I went to check what I had taken but it turns out that part must have been a dream 😳😬. I was good last night even though I didn’t want to be.....and didn’t think I had been. I think I flipped worrying about the text message to my therapist. She responded this morning in a caring way and told me she is always on my side. I don’t deserve her support. I was lost for words. 

Feeling lost but trying to regroup. Started with a positive bang after reading your message and sans but feel in a heap and have just woken up from second sleep. Some people have second breakfast. I think mine is second sleep :face_with_rolling_eyes:. 

Whingy whiny venty part. I am over trying to regroup and then crash because of stuff out of my control. I know you experience this loads too. I guess it’s something that everyone experiences but maybe not quite to the level we do. I’m so flat again 😬

Portrait of me right now

what I hope to look like by the end of the day 

yeah ok im dreaming. 😳🤦‍♀️

Hugs to all reading and and hope your day is ok. 

[CheerBear]

I had a bit of a chuckle at your pics @Teej. I can very much relate, as I do to what you said about crashing after trying to regroup. Regrouping is tiring. Crashing is tiring. Getting up, falling down, getting up, getting tripped over... some days I feel like this

And this

(I'm hoping these give you a bit of a giggle but also may be trying to build up my albums - look what you've started 😉😆🤣)

In all seriousness though, I'm sorry to hear you had a rough night. It's great to hear your therapist was so supportive. I know you struggle to think you deserve good, but you do. Just like all of us do. 

Dreaming is good and those on top of the world feels would be awesome 😊 Hugs for today 💗

[Teej]

They are fabulous @CheerBear 💜😆. I especially love the bottom one. 

I must be struggling with motivation as I haven’t gone any further with the albums but I love the idea of starting an album image movement 😂. 

Have fun. 💜🤗

[Shaz51]

hugs @Sans911 

I love the pictures @CheerBear xx

I agree @Faith-and-Hope  

[Shaz51]

hugs @Sans911 

I love the pictures @CheerBear xx

I agree @Faith-and-Hope  

[Teej]

Self hate rage 🌋:bomb:🤬. Want to turn it all off again 🤐😖

[Sans911]

Hearing you @Teej. Stay here if that's what's going to keep you safe. @outlander gave me an idea--throw balled up socks at the wall. Even better if you can- Break something. Really break it. Put all your rage and energy into it. I was allowed to break a plate at the respite centre. Even though I wasn't angry at the time it still felt good

[Teej]

Have already self medicated @Sans911. 😕. Will be ok though. Thanks. Just needed to be accountable because urges are really strong to go further. I just need to turn it off until tomorrow. 

[Sans911]

I understand your need to do that, but I hope a time comes when that is not so needed. Hugs my friend @Teej

[Faith-and-Hope]

💜💐💕🌷 @Teej .....