Good morning in the nest.
I woke really early again with nightmares. I had Noodle with me and he must have known something wasn't quite right because he was standing over me as soon as I woke. He's so funny. The other cats I have had have either been the type to do their own thing completely or snuggle in really close when I need them. Noodle seems to want to help but is so much of a clown that he doesn't quite get it right and his version of 'comfort' is 'smash into her head and roll all over her face never sitting still'. It was nice to have him there and patting him calmed me enough to go back to sleep for a little while.
I've written a dot point list of what I want to say at this interview today. To have gotten that far is a big step as even trying to do this has been too triggering and I haven't been able to finish it until now. So much of my issues with the post big bang mess has been the constant message that it is much safer for me to shut up, suck it up and stay quiet. I have an opportunity today to speak up and I want to take it. It seems really important to do. I'll take some tissues with TT in my handbag, and remember to breathe and feel my feet on the ground, and hope it's not too hard, knowing there's a safe landing spot in a nest if I need it.
The c-link and housing stuff will do it's thing and there's not much I can do other than ride them out too.
I feel really shaky but will remember that really shaky doesn't always mean I will tip over into can't cope anymore, and I'll take today hour by hour, or minute by minute if I have to.
@Former-Member - I have made forum breakfast cake and will leave it here for you. I am sorry you're feeling so alone.
@Phoenix_Rising lives in my handbag, blanket and pocket,
@Mazarita in the morning sky, and you on my kitchen window sill in the vase of succulents. I think of you often when I pass them. I know you're not a big talker here, but I want to listen if you ever want to share. And am happy just sitting next to you if you don't.
Hope today is a good one for everyone. Good is the wrong word but I don't have another one to fit.
