I'm in a nest

[Mazarita]

Love and hugs and thinking of you today, @CheerBear  

[Shaz51]

@CheerBear siting with you xoxo

[Snowie]

@CheerBearI know how hard it is to put trust in others, especially when little people are involved. But to be there for those little people, you need to look after yourself. Being scared is ok. Am wishing this works out the best for you 

[Maggie]

@CheerBear My lack of words doesn't mean lack of thoughts.

[CheerBear]

I can feel the thoughts, care and understanding, and very much appreciate them thank you ❤

I didn't get a call yesterday. I spent my evening trying to distract myself from anxiety and panic, and trying really hard not to read and research to work out what might happen next. I didn't do so well at that last one, but I did manage to keep flip out relatively under control-ish. It's the unknown with them (catts) that will drive some big worry. I can wait however long I need, but waiting would be a lot easier with a little bit more of an idea of what's going to happen.

It is what is though and worry doesn't help. I'm definitely in a better place this time and can settle panic quicker, see the bigger picture, and do what I need to get through. That gives me hope and maybe a bit more confidence, that this is going to be different.

I feel really disorganised and want to get stuck into preparing things mode. Stuff like uniforms, the cupboards, fridge, school notes and events, etc. I think my person will come and stay here so the crew can still go to school, and being that I don't know when this might happen, I want to be ready for it at anytime. So that's my plan today.

Hope there's good in the day for anyone reading 💗

[CheerBear]

I took the call from psych triage and it was great (so much thank you to a psych who would have helped with that too). They listened, carefully asked questions, explained the process and asked what could help me the most. I felt respected, calm enough, supported and in control. I was able to say that CATTs coming over with the my little crew here was not a good idea, and they agreed and have noted that it is better for me to speak on the phone or go and see them myself. The referral to CATT has now been put in and they will call within a couple of days, probably sooner rather than not, for an assessment with the purpose as being to get me to the break place. It could all happen quickly from here. So, so good when things work. This feels like progress (even if it's also feeling a bit backwards step in going for an admission). Now crossing fingers the catt call works the same way.

Breathing ☺

[Maggie]

Breathing with you @CheerBear

[Faith-and-Hope]

❤️ @CheerBear ......

[Teej]

That’s awesome news @CheerBear. All systems go hopefully. And it’s not a step back it’s a step forward 😘

[Mazarita]

@CheerBear, so good to hear that this has started well, and that you didn't have to wait too long for triage! No step backwards, as @Teej said too. A step towards rest, recovery and renewed strength beyond.