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[Snowie]

thanks @Bow Just pissed off at myself

It's my own stupid fault @rav3n I should have said something. 

I tried to talk about it yesterday and gave up

Tried today and failed

My pdoc is on holidays for another 2-3 weeks. His overseas so can't even email him

[rav3n]

you're not alone @Snowie it's so frustrating when you know what you wanna chat about but the words don't come out - but it doesn't make you stupid, it's a hard thing to voice. 

the timing of pdoc and psych taking their leave!!! sucks that they're both away for a while, do you have any other supports at the moment? is GP someone you can chat to? sending you 💗💗💗

[Snowie]

It's hard not to feel stupid or to blame myself @rav3n I waited 2 1/2 weeks for that appt. and blew it. My own fault.

I have no other supports. I really only see my gp if I need too. Don't speak to her about my MH.

I'm not going back to ED. I find that when you speak to someone, they put a band aid on it and send you home. I think, as long as they have ticked the boxes so they don't get into trouble they are happy. [edited by moderator]

It's worthless trying 

[rav3n]

@Snowie it's okay to feel it, we all have our days where we feel stupid, annoyed, frustrated with ourselves - just know that this doesn't reflect on you or your progress as a whole. 

oh i see, so fair if you don't usually talk MH with GP. you've got the community still and there's helplines you can try reach out to again when you feel up to it. does writing down a lil script or some dot points help with talking about it?

also p.s. i've edited your post a bit so that it focus on your experience rather than sound generalised so it meets our community guidelines - if you're not happy with the edit/wanna reword it, let me know!

[Snowie]

Editing the post is fine @rav3n 

I sat on hold for over 30mins yesterday to chat to someone, then finally gave up. I know it's not their fault but was just getting more upset.

I had some things written down for today. I just didn't use them.

Normally it helps.

I was scared to tell her a few things

[Snowie]

Don't worry about it @rav3n doesn't matter

not meant to be

[Jynx]

Hey @Snowie been a lil while!! @rav3n is just helping out with some stuff, and will be back soon!! 

Sending you some 💜 and 🫂!

[Snowie]

Thank you @Jynx

still time to go 

[Jynx]

You off to bed then hun? Ach @Snowie catch up with ya next time then lovely 💜

[rav3n]

i do worry/care about you, pretty impossible not to when you mean so much to us. just know that the worry/care is NEVER a burden. 

i hope you're holding on, take care 💙