i cant keep on doing this

[Bubbles3]

im so tired of everything. i cant keep on doing this anymore. i feel so lost and alone. i have no one.i have no one to be with me . one to listen to me. no one to talk to. i just feel so alone.im tired of living like this anymore. sad, depressed, tired, im tired of the voices. im tired of me. i really do hate me. i dont want to be me. its all just to hard. all i want to do ,is go and hide and never come out. this world is to dark for me to live in. i never asked to have this life. i didnt want this life. i just want it all to go away.

[Bubbles3]

i just cant keep on doing this. it all to hard

no on cares

no one gives a sh*t about me

what the point of even being in thing world

[Former-Member]

Hi @Bubbles3 - sorry been at the topic tuesday tonight, which has been interesting!
I read that your appt was not helpful. Did your friend give you any feedback about it? would it help to go over any of the parts that you really felt you couldnt do with them? maybe people here have been through it?
We do care here and can hear how frustrated/angry and that you're feeling alone with it all...

[MaryMahem]

@Bubbles3

Hey.  I am in a similar spot to you atm.  It sucks.  It is hard to be positive when things aren't going well.  I'm not putting on a brave face at the moment, I'm wallowing.  It sometime helps - like in the movie When Harry Met Sally, when Billy is upset and he says he is just going to moan for a while, then proceeds to lie in bed and moan out loud (much funnier than it sounds).  It can be cathartic. I moan, wail and cry, like some some of our indigenous people do at funerals.  It helps stop internalising the anguish, pain and lonliness.  

[Bubbles3]

thanks @MaryMahem@Former-Member

looking back now , i see how my days are so different from each other.

yesterday i was feeling like that and today im feeling alot happier. 

i think thats BPD for ya. haha

thanks for for your help yesterday though

[Bubbles3]

Hi everyone. I dont know if i can keep on doing this. Its all to hard

[utopia]

You are stronger than you think @Bubbles3.
It's tough at the moment. But it's not always so hard. There are good times, happy times occasionally. That's what we need to focus on.

[Bubbles3]

i cant do this anymore

i feel so lost. i think half of my problem is hubby and the kids, when they get together. i dont want to be around them ATM. my anxaity is so high right now. i dont know what to do

[Bubbles3]

i feel so alone

[Bubbles3]

is anyone going to talk to me. i dont know what to do