when is it time for hospital

[Owlunar]

Hi @outlander

I have read back on your thread and people have written so really good suggestions here for your new life

Yes - I know you have anxiety - that is because you are changing the status quo and it feels uncomfortable - but stick to your plans - you are not your sisters' keeper and the dogsbody for anyone - you are a valuable and worthwhile person - very kind too - and this shows up in what you write - but you are entitled to your own life and your own decisions

It's up to your mother and her boyfriend about their jobs - they have choices - ah sheesh - your mother could pay you for all you do at home - that would make a difference - I used to pay my daughter to do some chores about the place when I was working - she was younger than you and rapt to have so much pocket money she actually earned

So hold your position and be kind - yes - as you are looking after the kids next week I think - and taking them to the movies next Saturday - and kids today can be entitled and precious - so finding ways to occupy themselves is a good idea - 

It seems things have changed quite a bit and now it's up to you  to make sure you don't fall back

And - also I read the post where you tagged me - your mother telling you to lie about what happened the day you went into hospital - that has to be a crime - people need to be honest - I am glad you stuck to your honesty - and that is not at all easy when your mother tells you to lie - wow - some mother!!!

I am glad you are back - and the people here obviously care a lot about you - and so do I

Lots of virtual hugs

Dec

[outlander]

@Former-Member that is so wrong!. why would you even text a client... like really who does that for that reason.

yeah thats really wrong and theres not way would i be going back there.

i hope you never come across anything like that again!

[outlander]

hi @Owlunar

I am still sruggling to get back into the swing of things though. Ive been out for 3 or 4 days now and im still I dont know flaoting but not knowing where or what to do next.
I always have anxiety and my moods are all over the place but I have medications that should hopefully start to kick in within the next week to help with that.

At least mum and her bf are trying I suppose. The main thing was all the responsibilities but they have been good since ive been out ive only watched them here and there and next week they are with me for three full days but not all at once just like every second day which is ok. I dont expect over night changes but as long as changes are happening.

Yes I stuck with honesty. My brain was shouting out the truth anyway, without even realising it.
The nurse, after I spoke to the psych, said do you have any idea what you said? As in not abd way but I was so zoned out I didnt actually realise I was saying anything or said things before I even thought about it.

[outlander]

Im off to watch cars 3 at the cinemas now

[Owlunar]

Hi @outlander

I have been in hospital for a variety of reasons through the years - there was a long period of time when I was in-and-out like through a revolving-door because I kept burning out over my son - a few days in and a few weeks out etc

And I can reassure you that what you are experiencing - floating and finding it hard to find your feet etc - is pretty normal - been there - I can tell you it passes and this is when you need to figure out what you want and how to make sure you get it and in time your medication will work and hopefully the anxiety will pass

But alas - degrees of anxiety are part of life - and most people have anxiety at some stage and I do understand

And it does sound as if your mother and her bf are trying - yes - you did have too much responsibility and they are taking that up atm - and it's up to you to make sure they never load you up again

It was good that you told the truth - the truth can never get muddled up - I like the truth - it is easier to remember esp when you have zoned-out

Apart from the anxiety you are doing well - 

Dec

[outlander]

@Owlunar
Thank you for helping me through this.
I dont want to end back up into that state again. But i know if i need to go again i will and i wont care what anyone elsr said. I just spent the last week there and they managed without me.

[Former-Member]

Hope you enjoy the movies,had a filling done when the last toy story movie came out,SAT there spaced out from numbness after needle but loved it.Wont be going back to him outlander,not a good way to conduct a business at all.

Anxiety is hard, especially at a high level when you don't know what to do with yourself.

[Former-Member]

Hope you enjoy the movies,had a filling done when the last toy story movie came out,SAT there spaced out from numbness after needle but loved it.Wont be going back to him outlander,not a good way to conduct a business at all.

Anxiety is hard, especially at a high level when you don't know what to do with yourself.But the change in family I hope will help.

[outlander]

@Former-Member@Shaz51

the movie was pretty good. too many kids though, constantly talking screaming or running up and down the isles but movie was good. better than sitting at home i suppose.

how are you today?

[Former-Member]

Yes I hate school holidays outlander!My anxiety is triggered by yelling kids,or if babies are screaming or crying in shops.Had a bad experience with neighbors when I moved away who were very antisocial,which made it worse.As well it's your tolerance other people who don't have kids often tell me the same.Never felt clucky when I see a baby,but give me a baby animal and I'm in love instantly!

I'm calmer today,going to bed  soon as I said, couldn't wind down last night .Wanted to go for a walk but had to wait for a tonne of box wood to come and stacked it..Made pumpkin soup,cleaned,and that was it.

Glad the movie was good but the kids running up and down the aisle I couldn't handle.Once I was in watching a movie and a disabled bloke was in there with cerebral palsy making funny noises with his mouth.It was very irritating.But when I had a reaction to a antidepressant after only being on themor three days,I suffered  involuntary muscle spasms of arms and torso,vocalised syllables when I got agitated,and facial ticks.I often think of my judgement of him when I went through that which I had for six to 12 months  after only three days on those drugs.