Life can be a Pain

[Former-Member]

Thanks @Dec, re CF article, its nice to be validated and told we have 'a way with words' that can help others. 

I'm pleased for you that your biannual specialist apt went well and she's a nice person and helpful. Nothing to worry about. And I'm also very impressed that you've reduced your pain meds yourself - well dine, I know that's hard to do. 

With mobility aids, apart from trying to be funny (cheer you up, see edited post image), no offense intended. I was wondering if using at least a walking stuck in public might cause people to take more care, esp with their kids, that's all. But I wholeheartedly support the concept of independence as long as possible. Gotta duck up the library. Here's another cute pic.

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[outlander]

@Owlunar

im really glad your appointment went well for you.
I wouldve yelled too and yes you did have a right to yell, imagine if you didnt both you and the child couldve ended up worse. So yeah I agree with @Former-Member You did the right thing!
I use to eb very athletic, not so much now, thats probably the only reason im able to keep going at the moment the athletic brain is kicking in lol
and yes Dec your super strong, not just strong very very strong like wonder woman.
Why the heck would people be rude to you for using crutches?
You obviously have them for a reason.
Heat packs are a fantastic invention!
I watch crime movies quite a lot, me and my nan use to sit there and watch them for hours
Im not really into star trek but I find it handing that your able to record the episodes you want and just go to sleep. Very ahndy indeed
yeah my horse- well actaully she is my sisters older horse but she cant do the eye treatments.
Ill just call her mine at the moment its easier to explain. Shes not very grateful for me doing her horse three times a day either but I suppsoe im use tot hat and the horses health is important to me so will continue to treat it as best I can.

Wow @Former-Member thats so excting that your daughter was in the newsletter. I dont know what it is but I still think thats fantastic and an awesome achievement. Just imagine all those people reading YOUR daughters article. Thats amazing!.

[Former-Member]

Hi again @Owlunar & @outlander,

Outlander - you actually made me laugh (which is an improvement for me), normally 'm so sensitive but think mybhumour is back plus I know you well enough to know you mean no harm. // Do you actually go horse riding x3 day? Do you find horse riding relaxing? Any thing outside is relaxing I reckon, with nature.

I had a lot of trouble logging into the forums tonight, and opening threads. Makes me feel targeted / paranoid - have to talk myself down / not panick / be logical. Rationalise, challenge ir, them, Gosh MI is exhausting.

Cried a lot today. Just missing my girl I guess. She's had her wings 6yrs now, maybe itsxthe weather, there's no anniversaries. Maybe Winter Blues. 💜💕

[outlander]

Oh yeah i was having the same trouble with the forums as were others but seems niknik and the tech team havr fixed it now @Former-Member

Im not sure how i made you laugh but its good to hear ❤

Nah i dont go riding 3 times a day. Im lucky to ride once a fortnight at the moment. When i was younger i use to ride all day. And other peiple would want me to ride their horses so sometimes it was 5 horses in a day. And i use to do horse showing like the ones you see on tv at the royals and local shows.
Sometimew its relaxing unless its a naughty horse which is the ones i work on most trying to givr them a second chance.

It could be the weather or your pain

[Owlunar]

Hi @outlander

Why would people be rude to me when I was using crutches? Well - I think some people get up in a bad mood some days and they want to give everyone a hard time - I don't know but

I was in a narrow aisle in the op-shop and an older lady was driving her registered scooter toward me - and I stopped and leaned on my crutches and said 

"I can't walk backwards - sorry - in this tight place I can't turn" This was the truth and I was polite - much younger than I am today - and I decided to prepare myself for a wait"

She glared at me and told me she needed to reverse to get out of the aisle - and I said "You must be able to reverse - your scooter is registered - I guess you had driving lessons - maybe have a licence even"

It was the classic stand-off - and I said - "I'm younger than you - I will last longer I think" and switched myself off reflecting I was more likely to live longer if I had to stand there forever

She could reverse and did - I wonder about that - 

Other times people have even shoved me to get past - and I must say though - that most people are helpful - crutches are not polite - not elbow crutches anyway - they are noisy - and they fall on the floor when I am getting something out of my bag and my wallet in a shop - and the noise. Then kind people pick them up for me when I am still fiddling with my bag and my wallet - 

But the kind people are outnumber the cranky ones - and for a lot of the time - I think people don't really notice - 

On the whole I find the world has a greater number of better incidents - I have been told I am a friendly person, polite and easy to get along with - but I do have an edge - 

My mobile phone hardly ever rings - my dd and gd and I text all the time or use the landline - and my phone started ringing when I was seeing my specialist - I turned it off and it rang again and I was apologising but my specialist told me to take it - someone from the council was outside my front door - and I had cancelled that shift - two importat things at once - oh wow - I rang the agency later and explained - wondering how things get muddled no matter what I say

But then - I got more feedback - I am always polite, friendly and easy to get along with. I must be - maybe that's why the world is not always a hard place for me - most people are fine

But then - there are small children off the leash - when my kids were young I got the leather leads my bro and I had on us when we were little - straps around the shoulders and waist that are easy for kids to tangle up - maybe I should promote leads for kids in this day and age - or having your kids on a leash might be considered abuse now - I don't know

Gee - can I rattle when I get started

Dec

[Owlunar]

I had an idea about what you can do when you are working with the horses and cleaning up the mess

Each time you go there put a gauze dressing inside your bra to lessen the change of the air-borne infectious agents getting into your nipple where they can cause trouble. You don't have to use any bandaide or anything - just a piece of gauze about 5 cm square - a few layers - maybe 5 layers. It would be just like like but to keep it in place then maybe put some ointment there to keep the area clean

And only use the dressing once

I think about the people I interact with and care about here - I thought about that when I was waiting for my doctor with my in-grown toe nail - cause I use bandaides with that ointent for the infection

Just an idea

Dec

[Former-Member]

. Trying to be funny. Struggling. Got snapped at by a customer today, had to take a 1/2hr break to compose myswlf - burst into tears and sobbed, veen teary since. Me and my big mouth trying to be friendly (he's a rude AH pig my other parts tell me). Its triggered me, I'm paralysed on couch, sciatica kicked in bad (often does after a shift). I've been  teary all week.. So embarrassing to burst into tears that easy and at work with customers. Flight response mode kicks in but nowhere to run and my back hurts too much to go for big walk. I haven't been like this, this teary for so long, hope I'm not relapsing, don't understand, can't go through that again. Plz pray for me. Maybe winter blues, or a recent  medication change (blood pressure). Far out, you think we'd run out of tears, gotta go. Hope you're OK 🌷🌿

[Bast]

Hi @Decadian @Former-Member @Owlunar @outlander@Former-Member

It is so good that you are here. Pain meds are very scary stuff, highly addictive and very nasty on your brain and body. You will find the ideal dosage in consultation with the the GP. I worked with a person who had become so addicted, the person would shoot up the meds between toes. Horrific when the dosage was unavailable. 

I  cannot possibly understand how bad your injury has become for you. So many years of agony.

Just somehow try to relax and be your best self whenever you can.

Lotsa luv Bast

[Former-Member]

oh dear @Former-Member - sorry you're feeling so low at the moment. Can you get another apt with your prescribing dr? maybe it is the change of meds as well as the winter changes.
I had an incident at work that shook me a bit this week, its hard sometimes. noone recognises anything good that we do... Hope that next week is better for work for you.
Take care of you

[outlander]

hugs @Former-Member @Owlunar@Bast@Former-Member