Living with Loneliness

[PeppyPatti]

Dearest @Glisten 

This post made me feel quite emotional. 

 I felt real distress and .....

Maybe frustration ? 

Much distress. 

Is it right that grief sometimes comes out in little spurts of tears ?

@Glisten 

Your precious. 

 

 

[Glisten]

@PeppyPatti I thought that was a picture of a fairy. 🧚 

Then I had a close look 👀 

It’s two sea turtles copulating BAHAHA 🤣 

So FUNNY 😆 

G

[PeppyPatti]

Dear @Lila3 

I must acknowledge that before I couldn’t get my head around WHY I was being bullied by important people in my life. I could not see myself through. I was walking around like in a daze……

Why was this happening to me? What have I done wrong ?

Why was I so attracted to very dangerous people ? 

Then at 55 years old, I got it, I began to understand it was not my fault. 

I need a LOT of support what will not stop anytime soon. It’s exhausting too. I just cannot understand

why I need so much support.

Because Im done. Ive done the work. Set me free and let me be free

but it’s not like that.

I need medication

I need antidepressants.

I need the mood stabilisers.

From an acquired brain injury.

It feels like I want to go screaming to my two adult sons and yell, this is not my fault. Be my friend, but if I did that, they will run away and think Im crazy. ATM right now they definitely don’t.  

You and me need to remember good health hey ? 

I paid for an ancestry family line thing that you spit in a tube and it’s sent to Ireland and they can tell you your family line. It’s just starting to come through….it will take another two weeks to finish but Ive just discovered my Great Grandparent's…….

[Lila3]

@PeppyPatti Having any kind of mental illness makes one more likely to be a victim of violence (statistical fact). A lot of people mistakenly believe it means
you're more likely to be violent.
This isn't the case. Yes, long-standing untreated mental illness can put people at risk of committing violence/ harm.
The victimisation rates amoung those with psychiatric conditions are far higher than the perpetration rates. Lots of things might contribute to this: poor social support, lack of resources, dysfunctional family dynamics etc.

The positive is that with appropriate support & and treatment, we can live well. We can have full lives.

I'm excited you're exploring your heritage ☘️

[Tilz]

 Hey @PeppyPatti , you and your son in two different time zone isn't it?

[PeppyPatti]

Dear @Lila3 @Tilz 

I'm having a lot of fun watching Netflix 

I feel that iv had a pretty full-on meeting with my therapist -- 

I agree with you @Lila3 -- what surprises me that how much support I need. 

It's okay -- I get it --- are you like me ? 

 

[Lila3]

Ahh what a gorgeous red gum image!

I have multiple mental health problems. I get tired very easily & its hard for others to understand.

[PeppyPatti]

Thank you @Lila3  Im so glad that you are here. Me too, me too, people don't understand me. I get hugely anxious and say things too.

I like how you write 

Thank you about the picture. I'm not ready to draw yet but I enjoy putting pictures up.

[Emmy2]

i struggle with loneliness every day.

i believe in toughness, your not a man if you have emotions. so i laugh whenever my problems are issued publicly. i may seem like a funny and happy guy, even to my closest friends and family, but deep down, i feel like...

i cant describe it

i go through everyday, waiting for when i can crawl back to my room, and shut the world off. i am alone then. i feel like i will never be good enough, and that i will be alone forever. for if anyone ever really knew me, they would leave me.

[Emmy2]

You say you love the rain, but you open your umbrella when it rains

You say you love the sun, but you find a shadow spot when the sun shines

You say you love the wind, but you close your windows when the wind blows

This is why I’m afraid, when you say you love me