Living with Ourselves

[Maggie]

Good morning @Sophia1 i do understand so well the overwhelming feelings being around busy shoppers. I get almost everything delivered. A few years ago, I had a moment of courage and ventured into Coles...I think everyone in the state was in that shop, and volume was on high. If I'm faced with too many choices I can't decide on anything. I had to leave ..quickly. 

The complications of medications is always a dilemma. Need one, causes other problems. I too have always been below the list on self care. It's a hard one, one I may never achieve at all. But do the best you can, a bit of a silly statement as its all you can do right now.

Yesterday I managed to put one paver in. It was a beautiful day here, and once the sun came out, I gave it a go. After frost, usually a good day follows.

The art group sounds like a good idea. I don't know what artistic talents you have, maybe many. The fire sure sounds cosy @Sophia1 its years since I've had the good company of an open fire. Enjoy the warmth. I smiled when I read about your layers of clothing, scalves, gloves, ugg boots. Snap. Same here.

I hope you have periods of pain free today, I hope that for you too @Adge

Warm thoughts across the Tasman.💕💕💕💜

[Maggie]

@greenpea Wishing a calm and peaceful day for you too.

[Bluetoo]

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@Sophia1 wrote:

good morning @Zoe7 @Mazarita @greenpea @eth @CheerBear 

Are you sleeping in?    hmmmmm...

a mischievous group of green characters...butterflies....dancing.....healing....aliens....in an alternative fermented fuel base.....green peamobile crammed with 5 manic characters...moving at the speed of light across states....the bass strait...did you pass the barrier reef?   I hope you didn't knock over the apostles.....

I was in such a giggling state reading of their antics that I then could not get to sleep...on such a high....discovered this morning had not taken my sleeping pill ....as was distracted??   up at 7am to discover one green figure still climbing the walls and discussing the discovery of wildlife in long term rigor mortis state....needless to say in full details...maggots!   then it went to bats....

I might add that I was trying to eat my breakfast at the computer desk...that will teach me not to sit at the dining room table..

an extremely interesting...effective alternative to conventional methods in reducing the state of depression...

a huge thank you to all concerned who were totally non the wiser apart from the keen eye of Zoe who spotted me hiding behind a lamp post....I wonder if there was a light at the top?

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I was actually just thinking the same thing today. I’m home alone and everything’s quiet and dull and I realized why I keep checking in mirrors to see how I look. It’s because what I see away from mirrors is way worse than what I see in the mirror. Sad isn’t it? I don’t know if that is typically girls or not. I’d venture a guess and say yes. 

This is a subject I’d love to respond to more. 

[greenpea]

@Bluetoo Hi Blutoo interesting your comment on mirrors. I have always been fascinated by reflections of people in mirrors. I always look at mirrors and I notice my mi children do the same (male and female) I dont think my non mi child does .... maybe it is a mi thing? ...

[Bluetoo]

I think you may be right. If your son does it too. It is kind of an ocd thing. Right?

[Faith-and-Hope]

Morning everyone ..... 👋💕

I woke too early for how late I was up last night, but managed to stay in bed and drift off to sleep again.  Unusual for me, but better .....

Getting up now to find some coffee and see whether my son slept last night ..... so hoping he did because new uni deadlines are next week, and in the five days I have been back, he hasn’t been able to engage with the almost complete assignments before starting on those that are less done.  Fear of submission is the wall he has to climb over.  He is fine with his music study and private language study, which he is still doing steadily ..... it’s uni that contains the phobia, but a work environent would have the same issue, if not worse.

The tension is threatening to get me down, so I have to put my own shield up against that, and stay steady myself. .... breathe .... and go find some coffee .... get out of the house .....

If situational depression gets on top of me, it’s not going to help.

[Shaz51]

morning @Bluetoo, @greenpea, @Maggie

sending hugs for you and S2 @Faith-and-Hope

@Sophia1, i love your messages , thank you , most time I don`t think I am very good , it is hard just to go with the flow when your partner has bipolar2 , I am learning more myself , but mr shaz does not want to know as he thinks he is too old to change or help himself

[Sophia1]

hello @Shaz51

I wrote a lengthy response to you about an hour  ago and  have not sent it....

I am not sure how tired or fragile you are feeling....

I have written about thoughts and feelings as a means of helping your load...

my concern is that in writing too much I might add to your load...

do you find lengthy responses draining?  hard to take it all in? I am wondering if this might be so as you have so many different health issues with you and Mr Shaz as well as family....

So I am asking you to let me know how I can best respond to you....briefly?  epic style that I am renowned for?

either way I feel for you and want to let you know that

[Shaz51]

epic style that I am renowned for? @Sophia1,

have written about thoughts and feelings as a means of helping your load...-- love to read it @Sophia1, I might read it a couple of times

[Sophia1]

Hello @Maggie

Lovely to find your response this morning....

i can tell that you read my every word and think carefully and compassionately about how you respond..

so warm and  reassuring when feeling so fragile...

you too know of this state of mind...

One paver down....great stuff in such winter cold....Have you been out and checked it....looked at it from different angles...that is the sort of thing that I do...now that I have not worked for so long and hibernate all year round....I have so much time to look at what is all  around me outside...

I find that very comforting.....do you feel this way at all?

Back pain is not as excruciating all of the time...so has eased off in constancy...

so many factors come into play...so I try not to think about the whys and wherefores other than recognising when to rest...

which at the moment is often...

this will pass I know...

Do all of the houses...rental properties have some sort of heating systems in? What sort of heating do you have?

I know someone who lives there and wonder if they are warm enough....

I am off to exercise in the pool this afternoon again...makes me feel cold just thinking about it...lovely when in the water though...worst part getting out...home..jumping in hot shower...etc ..

I hope as always that you find something to smile about in your day of keeping warm..

yesterday I watched some comedies....one series english ..the other australian....always a wonderful feeling to laugh when have forgotten last time did..

take care   xx

apologies about the selection of hearts and colours on here....