Living with Ourselves

[Sophia1]

Hello @Zoe7

Yes the cost of the pool sessions is expensive....For me I justify it as my only form of entertainment cost really...I don't have coffee and cake or lunch out with friends very often at all...I do not belong to any sports clubs where membership fees are paid...I do not go to the pictures very often unless younger son wants me to go with him...which we do sometimes...I used to buy a lot of books...now I mostly use the library...

I love the water too and the beach...Perhaps I should  have been a fish...a dolphin I think...

@Appleblossom 

I will not be returning to the art group laugh...I have not got there yet...have lived here for eight and a half years and only just found out where it is...So once am more active ...I shall strive to push myself out of the house....obstacle number one...check it out...

when I spoke about it again to this friend at the pool...she mentioned that people come and  go at different times...I like that idea ...as if I feel anxious at first I will not  feel as conspicuous leaving...

[Zoe7]

I have been doing a little more searching this morning on costs and fees for pools closest to me @Sophia1. I am starting to think that the pool I am going to for sessions with the physio might be the best for my needs at the moment and I will need to absorb the cost somehow. Once my physio sessions end it will work out to be a little more expensive to visit the pool on my own but it is a necessary step to me being able to return to work. I need to be both physically and mentally much better than I am at the moment.

My general health is ok but I am very unfit and struggle with even day to day things like housework. I get very tired very easily still and cannot concentrate on things for long - both of these need to improve dramatically for me to be able to return to work. Teaching is such a hard job when you are physically and mentally well - it is near impossible to do the job when you are not! I do miss the kids and the work but I also know I am not capable of functioning in that role as yet. I am aiming for some kind of return to work in 4th term - so around 3 months away - but will need to show significant improvements over the next couple of months for that to be a viable option. The aim is to be back at work for 3-4 days a week by the beginning of next year (in February). 

I think these are realistic aims but I also know that there is a lot of work that needs to be done to reach those goals. The annoying thing is that I need to be back at work because I need the money but without that money coming in I cannot do everything I need to do to be back at work - very frustrating!

[Sophia1]

yes @Zoe7

this one is for you to @eudemonism @Adge @Former-Member@Maggie @Shaz51@outlander @Appleblossom @eth @Bunniekins

@Teej @Former-Member@Owlunar@Mazarita@Exoplanet @Bluetoo@Dearprudence9@Sans911@MDT@TAB@TheVorticon

@Former-Member@Former-Member@utopia @The-red-centaur (your user name is the hardest one for me to remember) 

I cannot remember any more names of those who are on the threads on the lived experience side...

help me out @Shaz51 or @Zoe7 you are good at this...

this is not about you needing to respond...of course if you would like to that would be lovely...this is  about my letting you know that I feel for your realities....hoping that you find some peace and comfort in your days...

the other side of the coin is ....if I have offended anyone..please understand my intent is not to undermine or judge anyone..

[Sophia1]

hmmm 

ps....you might all need a magnifying glass to read the words...looking back at the image....

oh well perhaps you  could see if as a distraction or something to work on...might even bring a smile to your face...then it is worthwhile

[Maggie]

@Sophia1@eudemonism Going back a few posts in your conversation. I found this some time ago, it speaks volumes to me, but then, pictures always do.

[Zoe7]

Love the quote @Sophia1 - reminds me so much of working with kids and letting them know it is okay not to get something right because those mistakes can be learnt from as much astheir successes... not everyone can get everything right all the time - and what is right for one person may not be right for another - this is what makes our world so complicated but also every individual so unique.

[Zoe7]

btw @Sophia1 - not all posts are coming through to me as emails this morning but notifications seem to be working - others may have the same issue - just a heads-up incase this is happening for others on this thread.

[MDT]

Hey @Zoe7 how are you doing atm? Are you any better?

Thanks for this tag @Sophia1 very nicely said

[Zoe7]

Hi @MDT  My back is still very sore but I have had 2 nights in a row where I have slept without nightmares so that is a huge win.

How are things at home with your Mum going now - has she backed off a little? What are your plans for the rest of today? I am resting up with Toby atm.

[Sophia1]

hello @Maggie @eudemonism

Well said...that is even another take on having an opinion..having a conversation...

definitely a valid reason for explaining about not judging others..not knowing there story...not needing to know their story either...

thanks for sharing