You are just human @Sans911. We all do things we regret. You’ve tried honestly and genuinely to make amends. I know it doesn’t feel like it when you are in it, I know I felt ill about Maz for months but I’m pretty sure you know you might act differently if it happened again for you. It’s so hard because a different reaction may have happened as well from the other person. We never know what will happen. In writing this post I’m aware that it sounds like I have lots of judgements about said incident but I honestly don’t. I very much see from both sides. I’m just trying to take emotion out of it. My therapist has pointed out that every time we come on the forum we take risks. We take risks that we’ll be hurt and we take risks that well hurt others and it’s so hard because the risks are public. It’s a heightened risk because we are all at the high end with sensitivities.
Go gently on you as I hope she is going gently on her. You don’t know what is going on for her either. There may be other things at play. It’s so easy to write this stuff to you when it’s not me at the centre of it. I think you’ve handled it the best way you could. I hope you can forgive yourself. Every interaction we have is just part of a learning curve.
I’d miss you if you went into hiding too. 💜🤗
@Sans911 I have grown very fond of you though I dont say it much.
I love your discrete move from the 911 avatar to your more peaceful umbrella at the end of the pier. It says a lot about your strength and your journey. You are reflective, very supportive and also humorous. I hope in time it works out. Please dont take it all on you. Being a Community Guide has an extra sense of responsibility attached to it, but YOU'VE GOT THAT. It should not mean total perfection. We all need to be allowed an "oops" here and there.
