@Teej
You are incredibly hard on yourself, and you have such a beautiful, but sensitive nature that is easily hurt. No, it wasn't you that hurt my feelings.
I'm aware I probably need to discuss it with the person involved, but as the days pass it gets harder to do. And I of course have been over sensitive, over rationalising, and overthinking the whole situation.
I want to talk to the mods desperately about it, but it's not a crisis really. Its just hard to be here because it heightens the situation and makes me feel quite distressed & uncomfortable. I need someone to help me rationalise it all, and then put to rest and move on.
I'm much like you too in that last paragraph, where I react strongly to any criticism, regardless of its constructive or not. I get on the devensive very easily, and my tone of voice turns very abrupt, which then inflames the situation further. Its a part of me I totally detest.
Not you @Teej
Our conversations have been fine. Please take that stress off yourself. But don't ask me who it is or what happened as I need time to work it out.
