I am struggling at the moment

[Faith-and-Hope]

Snapdragons hold special memories for me too ....

[CheerBear]

😊 @Faith-and-Hope ❤

And more 💗 and 🤗 (the hug one is too smiley sometimes) for you @Teej.

[outlander]

somewhere nice to sitif i remember right you like hot chocolates?and some of these never go astraysitting with youtoo @Teej 

[Shaz51]

@Teej

Hello @outlander, @CheerBear, @Faith-and-Hope, @Sans911

[Teej]

Totally neurotic. Been trying so hard not to be but I am. Want to shut down everything. Really really want to switch off permanently. So much insecurity and self hate. I don’t know why I can’t get passed it. 

[Shaz51]

hugs @Teej  and sitting with you

[Faith-and-Hope]

Hi @Teej

@If it’s at the surface and expressing itself, it’s at the place where you can work on letting it go.

You know the 15/15 with housework .... invest in something productive / creative / worthwhile in response to those feelings .... fly in the face of them to do something good for yourself or someone else, trading positive for negative.

Water something.

Clean something.

Walk.

Shop.

Garden.

Walk into the library.

Walk into an art gallery.

Cook something.

Use the pain, anger, self hate as the catalyst to achieve something instead of self-harm, like you are spiting it, countering its intent.

[Teej]

Too late @Faith-and-Hope i started. 😖

[Shaz51]

I find doing the dish washing is good @Teej and it also makes lots of noise too

[Teej]

I’m so screwed up. I just don’t want to be awake anymore. I hate me. I don’t want to be this person anymore. I don’t know what I’m doing anymore.