I dont know how much longer i can go on like this

[outlander]

eres some pics from today:

some pics of the waves above

a fish that i found which is called a toad fish

i caught a crab and also found a little hermit crab

my view from the window we had a lunch today

[outlander]

@Former-Memberi didnt pay for my drinks. i only had 2 small ones. the first one i bareley touched as i didnt like the taste of it so really only had half if that. i cant think of thos small glasses. not a scooner but not a shot either. 

we have a riding school about an hour or so away from me so was going to go there but with the party going on i had no idea what time it was going to finish. it was only a lunch thing but it went for 3 and abit hours

[Queenie]

Sounds like it was a great day @outlander. I was thinking of you today and wondering how you were getting along. Happy Birthday!

[outlander]

thanks @Queenie it went as well as it couldve - not to meantion prns and drinks in the mix there! 

struggling abit with triggers tonight though but trying not to let it ruin the mood

[Former-Member]

Sounds like you got P***** @outlander!,I'm not a drinker ,with your medication probably not great idea anyway.

Just watched fireworks from verandah,town festival going on,they must've knew it was your birthday.I was distressed at the same time.... questioning myself, wondering if I need to go to hospital,but knowing it's pointless.

[outlander]

Nope hardly drunk @Former-Member still able to drive and stuff. Gave it 2 hrs though just to make sure. All up a midi thats it.
Lol maybe.
@Former-Member maybe it is time for you to go to hospital if thats what you think is best. You need to take care of yourself too. Your important and your wirth it even though your brain says different. Tou are worth it!

[Former-Member]

What you drank wouldn't affect you @outlander.My anger and intolerance have been high today with the anxiety.Didnt see doctor yesterday,when I got there he had a emergency,and the receptionist rang a bell later when I was having a coffee to say he was back.I cancelled knowing I'm a waste of time..

[outlander]

Nah i thought about really getting smashed but i thought nope couldn't handle after effects and i have to work tomorrow and watch the kids.
Tomorrow arvo though heading to a hotel but still have to work including paddock cleaning for a few hrs starting at 9am but i want to be finished by 13 so i can go back and just chill and watch movies or go for a walk or something.

You should reshedule @Former-Member or even try a new gp. A set of fresh eyes mught help as well instead of dragging on with this one....

[Former-Member]

Sorry @outlander,fell asleep last night,the walking and high anxiety I've had I'm really buggered,which is triggers the depression.Before I left town on Friday,my mother rang,couldn't find the key to the house that I left where she suggested to leave it and she forgot the conversation.I got stressed and had to park my car in a park and sit there for a while to calm down.I know no one can help me,won't go on medication when my life is hopeless and no life.

Sounds like you are in a good headspace,try and keep it that way too tonight!lol🐺

[Former-Member]

Sorry @outlander,fell asleep last night,the walking and high anxiety I've had I'm really tired,which is triggers the depression.Before I left town on Friday,my mother rang,couldn't find the key to the house that I left where she suggested to leave it and she forgot the conversation.I got stressed and had to park my car in a park and sit there for a while to calm down.I know no one can help me,won't go on medication when my life is hopeless and no life.

Sounds like you are in a good headspace,try and keep it that way too tonight!lol🐺