I dont know how much longer i can go on like this

[outlander]

my psych said she cant help me, only i can help msyelf. what faith do i now have in the mh system? for someone who cant help themselves to be told that not even a mh professional cant help.

but no this convo isnt from her, it was from a so called friend who grew distant then tried to come back but she started this entire mh conversation. i didnt want to talk of it and she pushed it.

im hiding away. im not talking to anyone anymore. i obviously cant trust anyone.

@Owlunar@Queenie 

[Owlunar]

Uuuuuuuuuuummmmmmmmmmmm,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,

Those people are not your friends

I could give you a long list of such events - 

Now - I am pretty sure no one here has any desire to make you change - and people who do - like this person who was a friend - and who knows what she thinks - has for whatever reason said unworthy things to you - 

I said before - a lot of what happens to all of us has to do with what we believe about what people tell us - and I am sure there are things you haven't told us - there are things I don't mention - sure that's true of everyone 

But this person was out of place - and it's really important not to give her the power

You really are a hard worker - and unpaid a lot of the time - and if you have had someone rat you like that it's really unfortunate - but please don't give them the time or space - it was cruel and heartless from someone who has no idea

Dec

[Shaz51]

Hello @Former-Member, this is the thread which @outlander is talking about

ohh @outlander, you do soo much my little sister , dont let these people get to you , you are better than them xoxo

[Former-Member]

Thanks @Shaz51!🙋

@outlander,We have talked about toxic people before and the shame we are made to feel in being weak with mental illness.

When I mentioned in a post last week when I crossed the main Street,seen someone I knew who I wanted to avoid because of my shame in being gossiped about with mental health, unemployed,and that they have a mouth from Sydney to Melbourne on them,and they seen me do it and said "hello ******",which I then said hello ******, whilst pretending to go back.I was also trying to get to my disability employment provider hoping she could fax the medical certificate to Centrelink as I suffer anxiety going in there,but feel paranoid and embarrassed going in there as well.

I can't handle people like the one I avoided @outlander.I have lived  like @Owlunar is discussing  in conflict with what people are projecting back to me,their crap and assumptions.To survive,I had to block them,but I don't know at times if this was a good idea because it took away my ability to survive,to fight,to cope with human nature.I avoid them to prevent triggers for my depression and anxiety,and if they say something wrong,like a few weeks ago with that old stickybeak when vI went for my walk,I had to ring her up and give it back, because I can no longer carry crap from other people who are out of line like @Owlunar says.

I avoid people so I won't give them the power to put me down,I suggest @outlander,you do the same,and be prepared to tell them where to go if they put you in that position.I think I get more disgusted and disappointed with human nature than anything else.

[Former-Member]

Sorry sis @outlander just saw all of this then. R u ok?

[outlander]

No @Former-Member im not
I can hardly reapond here. Im reading but i cant respond. I cant function

[Former-Member]

ok @outlander just read back.

Don't you for one minute believe what that person said. That is someone showing how ignorant they are becasue they obviously don't know you as well as maybe you thought. If they are saying those comments, than they do not understand MI at all.

I can understand how upset you are, having someone saying that to you face to face is hard and a kick in the guts, but you know that there are alot of people on her that you CAN trust sis.

Trust me that when I tell you what this person said to you is utter garbage 

Trust that you have a forum family that deeply care about you

Trust me when I say you are an amazing strong young lady - Superwoman

Trust us that we will always be here to listen and sit with you and give you big hugs when you need that extra support.

💜💙💜💙

[Appleblossom]

@outlander

I often just read and have too much going on to speak.

We do care about you here. 

AND you are worth it.

Take care

[outlander]

I dont know what to believe anymore. I just dont know. I want to trust people here and i do trust members here i just dont want to hurt them either.
I juat dont know 😞 😞 😞 😢😢😢

[Owlunar]

I'm still watching @outlander

I can't think of what more to say but I am with you and other people are saying really great stuff

Dec