I dont know how much longer i can go on like this

[Sans911]

@Former-Member no problem hun. Please take care of yourself. Goodnight.

@outlander Goodnight to you too if you have gone back to sleep

[outlander]

Good night @Former-Member @Sans911 ❤❤

[outlander]

Thats the last one. Im not going back to sleep fk that not after this one!!

[Owlunar]

Hi @outlander

I thought you would be asleep by now - I did read a bit of your thread and I think you had a bad nightmare - this is not good at all - some medication can really stuff your head around

I have had the opposite problem - too much sleep - something bit my face and my cheek from my ear to near my chin swelled up and I have been drowsy and washed out since Tuesday - I had an injection for the allergy and that made me sleepy too and Fridays are usually busy and this one was no different - but yeah three days just fell out of my calender so I have no idea what has been happening in the Forum Family all these days

So I hope things have been easier - I doubt it because it seems you have a lot of different versions of the same-old same-old and I hope by now you have fallen asleep 

I am always sad when I spend time away from the website and lose track of what's happening but just letting you know I am okay - the swelling in my face has gone down and I am awake - and thinking of you

No doubt we will catch up - even though I don't know what happened I have been thinking of you

Dec

[utopia]

Are you okay @outlander? Do you want to talk for a bit?

[outlander]

I didnt sleep the night before because of nightmares and then again last night ive only had what sleep i go in the nightmares. Ive been up since 130 and havent been back to sleep @utopia
They all seem to be surrounding death atm besides the dog incident. I either watch myself commit or someone is trying to do something. These have been for the past few nights and i dont know what set them off.

I have to go to drs on tuesday to get more meds for my foot and neck flare up and notmal pain relief doesnt so anything.

I have my sisters again today while everyone is at work and the littlw one ia already peatering me.

Im too tired for this. I dont want to keep going.

[outlander]

@Owlunar i have been up since 130 and the sleep ive had is the bightmare allowance thats it. It happened yesterday night too and atarted aince i was in the hotel though i was still getting some sleep ao could function better.

Im sorry about your allergy. Sounds really horrible! I hope it clears up quick. ❤

No things havent been easier. Ive been trying to switch it around so i can see the positives. So i can moving foward and not be dragged back by the situation im in but i cant seem to escape. I want to be better but its not happening right now.

Ao in short no still thr same but the nights are getting worse

[Owlunar]

I am okay now @outlander - some insect or spider bit me and my cheek and jaw are a bit tender but I have stopped sleeping non-stop - it might sound good to get so much sleep but it's not natural

I am sorry about the nightmares - I wish there was something I could say to make life a little easier but I know from experience that there are bad patches in all our lives - and yours seems to be unreasonably so - and it is certainly not fair

Hold on tight to what you believe in - let's hope you can draw a better future for yourself - but it will not be easy

Sending my best Saturday pic if I can find it

Aw - I can't find where I filed the super Saturday pic so I will send the cute little owl instead

Dec

[outlander]

Im glad your ok @Owlunar good to hear ❤
Thanks for the cute little owl. Im so tired. Tired of everything.
All my dreams atm seem to be about death. Maybe its trying to tell me something..maybe im really not wanted on the earth amymore,trying to get rid of me.

I hope todays a good day for you ❤

[Former-Member]

Morning sis @outlander sorry if was another rough night last night. Baby steps today hun