I'm in a nest

[Phoenix_Rising]

I am using my phone so this is a short post. @CheerBear I haven't made it to the library yet. My brain is all puddled again with the giant grief feelings. I am SUPER glad I got through that marking before this latest wave hit. Attachment theory is one of my special interests and it was the focus of my dissertation. It is at the core of my muddle - hence the extremely a-typical (but not weird or bad) hugely massive grief over Cherrybomb.
I am lying under my weighted blanket - It must feel a bit heavy in your pocket 😊. All that talk about pompoms made me think about how snuggly it would be to snuggle inside a pompom. I am looking forward to our trip to spotlight.

[Former-Member]

Hi @Phoenix_Rising. Thinking of you 🐢

Hi @CheerBear. I hope there's been lots of excitement shopping for shiny things 😁

I struggled to pull myself together this morning as lack of sleep took its toll. Luckily I got an extra hour that made a huge difference to take my total to three hours. I really don't cope without sleep. It's one of my biggest vulnerabilities. But I'm here at footy and survived without being arrested for homocide of any of my children which is always a good thing. 

Here's hoping today is ok for all 💜🤗💐

[CheerBear]

@Former-Member - how was your day of footy? I laughed at the homicide call. It's always a good day when you don't get arrested for that 😛 My LF were eating non-stop this afternoon and I thought of you with active big boys and stopped complaining. My shiny things weren't at the craft shop 😞 Means I'll have to take a trip there next week without LF (I'm not sad about this!). Hope your day was good.

@Phoenix_Rising - We've had a busy and noisy day today - hope it wasn't too loud for you in there. 

We did our outing. I think you'd really like this place. It's a place where we can all just 'be' in however way we are. The LF get to be all creative and expressive. I often get to hang and chill while they're busy so today I sat on a really comfy chair and worked on a thing that biggest asked for. One of the LF made me picture which we both liked a lot (wish I could show the whole thing but it has a name). We also went out for a little while. At the shops we found a book that I thought you'd like. "A Home In The Sea" 🙂 We did get to a craft shop, but not one we usually go to and it had no faux fur to make pom poms 😞 I spent as long as the LF would allow me looking at (drooling over) all the craft stuff sitting on the shelves just waiting to become something special, which set my imagination right off. I ended up picking up the yarn in the photo to make a seriously soft, chunky something. I'm in love with this ball and think you'd love the feel of it too. Soft, warm and snuggly. This afternoon we've been painting with the fish who are now movie watching. The house is destroyed and there's mess everywhere, but it's been a day of having fun and being messy, which seems to be feeling just like what we needed in this house today. Hope you sleep well tonight Phoenix_rising.

Off to make pom poms the old way. Not as furry or fluffy but still colourful and fun. 

[Phoenix_Rising]

Ooooh I super love all the fun things I got to share in with you and the LF today @CheerBear. That book looks perfect for me, and the yarn looks amazingly colourful. I can see that I was studying the picture that the LF made, very hard. Clearly I deeply appreciated the artistic flair shown there! It sounds like a super cool place you go to, where you can just be.

I'm super glad I could come along in your pocket. Not a lot has been happening around here today - just lots of riding big waves of grief. But I'm sure they will get a bit smaller day by day. I really need to try and be at least a little bit productive tomorrow.

Super big thank you for letting me share in your adventures with your LF. I very much enjoy hanging out with LF. I find them far less intimidating than grown ups.

Night @CheerBear 

[Former-Member]

It's nice to read you had a lovely day @CheerBear with Lf. I loved finding new kids books. It always gave me more thrills than the kids I'm sure. 💜 the pics too.

It was a hard day at footy but I knew it would be as it was a tough team. One of my youngest son's friends and teammates was knocked out cold for what seemed ages. He has bad concussion and was really not well, couldn't walk or talk for quite a while. The games were hard and very physical. My S3 plays in the A grade men's team which is full on. Today he came off second best again. He's been playing with two broken fingers (broken in 4 places) for the last few weeks but today he injured his AC joint in his shoulder and the trainer thinks another part of his shoulder is injured too. We'll have to wait until Monday to see what the real damage is 😔. They had lots of team injuries in the end. 

Apart from that I had a really distracted and even day which was nice. No distress, no crisis! It seems such a rare thing lately but I'll take it 😊

Wishng you all the best for tomorrow 💜🤗💐

[CheerBear]

Far out @Former-Member - that sounds awful! I don't know if I'll ever be brave enough to watch one of my kids out playing something with so much contact. I hope your son's shoulder is ok 😞

Great to hear today wasn't a crisis one for you 🙂 That would feel good I'd imagine.

Falling asleep at the moment. This is a late night for me these days!

Night 🙂

[outlander]

@CheerBear ❤ ❤

[Faith-and-Hope]

Good morning everyone .... 🤗💕

Just quickly catching up on everyone's news before heading off on a quick beach walk with my Dad, then breakfast before church .....

Ouch @Former-Member .... ❣️ Hope S3's shoulder is "okay" .... it's obviously not, buthoping it's not too bad ......

Love ❤️ the arty adventures @CheerBear .... thanks for sharing the joys ...... 😁💕

Hiya @Phoenix_Rising ...... 🐢🌷💜

Hi @outlander .... 🍄 .... and anyone else who is around.

[outlander]

Goodmorning @Faith-and-Hope ❤ ❤

[Phoenix_Rising]

Hi @CheerBear,

Have we done fun stuff with the LF today? I am working super hard at being brave, but the missing-CherryBomb feelings are still filling up my brain such that I can't concentrate on anything. I am feeling torn about seeing (A) tomorrow. I feel so ok when I'm actually with her...but at the same time I can see how unhelpful she is for me. I am really struggling with the fact that Lunar and RockPool could get the bigness of the situation with CherryBomb, while (A) couldn't. It reminds me that with the right support, I could be doing so much better than I am...but I simply haven't been able to find it. Anyway, I'm going to try and get outside and get some fresh air. Super big thank you for letting me snuggle in your pocket.