I'm in a nest

[Mazarita]

Hi @CheerBear, our ridiculous-o-clock meetings are great but I always wish you better rest and smoother hours. Besides, I'm happy to chat with you any time! Full of smiles that this is shaping up to be a better experience for you from the outset. 

[Maggie]

Thinking of you today @CheerBear hoping all goes well.

[Faith-and-Hope]

Me too ❣️

[Teej]

Love, love, love the new avatar pic @CheerBear. It completely one ups the one I posted and I absolutely love it. 💜💜💜

[Teej]

Rough day @CheerBear?.  

Feel free to ignore. Here if you need/want to vent unless you’re like me and holding it all in which is causing just as much brain chaos. 

[CheerBear]

Really rough day @Teej. I did a rainbow walk to get to the clinic today though, and it helped. Not sure if you remember sharing that one?

Break is an "if" catt agree, it's likely to be a couple of weeks for an assessment there, and catt are not as happy keeping their distance as I hoped/expected. It's 😞

Are you going OK tonight? Thank you for popping by x

[Teej]

Yeah I still do the rainbow walk sometimes @CheerBear 🙂

im sorry it’s not looking as promising as it was. Are they wanting to offer you other options to stay at home? I’m so annoyed and sorry that 'the system' is back creating hoops to jump through so you can have some sanity timeand regain strength. 

My stuff is actually a little the same I guess. Didn’t realise it until writing this. It’s about systems and trying to find the help I need just now instead of creating more stress and distress. I’m rollercoasting between 'I can do this' and ' im done and there is no hope'. Today has been full on swinging between both. Im ok though just venting a little bit too. 

I hope the CAT team try some real communication. The thing I’ve learned is that they have to have lots of meetings before a decision is made (it also has to be made higher up the chain) and then they need lots of meetings to get everyone on the same page :face_with_rolling_eyes:. 

[CheerBear]

I think I'll get there, there's lots of me needing to behave and to jump hoops first maybe @Teej, and fear it can be off the cards if I don't. And I'm tired and easily shaken and they can shake well. I don't think they mean to, but it doesn't stop it.

Gosh it's hard having to do this in the brokenness of the systems sometimes. Hearing you. It can make finding the right support so difficult that sometimes whether it's worth it seems the question. It's not OK 😞 Also getting the "I can do this" and "I'm done" swing. My frustration is so much with myself at the moment, for the things I am saying to myself. Things like "I can't do this" when somewhere inside I think I know I can and I will but if I know I can then why go there in the first place?! Grrr me.

Bit of a laugh with the meetings. It's so true :S

Is any kind of break/time out something you can get do.you think?

[Teej]

@CheerBear Did you get to message your psychologist about this? It might help if they go in to bat again for you. I hope my last message wasn’t too negative. I know that at one point it was only my therapist who really pushed that changed things. 

Just saw your response. It’s good to know it’s still on the cards. Blooming ironic that we have to learn to jump through hoops like monkeys but when we act like monkeys we are scorned. Sorry cynical brain a bit on overload.

my respite stuff isn’t looking good. A few months ago 'the system' was going to put in place a few days respite every three months or so BUT the only place they could put me was a psych ward. At the time I was so desperate I would have taken that as an option. But that seems to haven fallen by the wayside (as so it should as we have people sitting in emergency departments for days who are desperately needing a mh bed) and there has been no communication about it since. 

So the CATT told me to see if I could find any respite places myself and gave a few numbers to try. There were two still doing it. As of last week June 1st you need a ndis package to use them. That is now impossible. I’ve asked my therapist to ring and see if there is any way I can go with out that funding but she hasn’t got around to it yet.

im just hurt and confused about so many things like you are I think. 

[Teej]

I realise it’s past pumpkin hour for you @CheerBear. All good if you don’t see this until the morning. I have something to post for you that I think I have a loophole for now. It’s just a pic that may not get through moderation without a tweak 😉😃

hugs 💜🤗