I'm in a nest

[CheerBear]

Not too negative at all @Teej (my psych called me negative Nancy on Friday haha). I'll save asking psych until after I meet the catt psychiatrist if I need, which I thought was happening today but I have to go back to the clinic for that another time. Catt want to call my GP and MH worker and they'll go in to bat for me if needed, for sure. It's crackers, some of the things that happen and the way our reactions to those things are what is judged :face_with_rolling_eyes:

I'm sorry to hear about your respite places now being NDIS funded. I wish there was more funding or support for prevention/respite so it didn't have to get further. It sounds like you've been dragged along a bit too. It's Just. So. Ugh. Sometimes.

(By the way, I had a bit of a laugh coming across chill unicorn on her angry pet t-rex for my avatar. I was going to ask you whether I could use Spiderman with a "wisdom scroll" but it was about 3:30 this morning and I couldn't wait until you were online so i went searching. I liked her style a lot and she reminded me of spiderman 😊 )

Looking forward to the pic. Thanks for the listening and the lift you've given me tonight 💗👋

[Teej]

Thanks too for giving me a place to vent @CheerBear and to @Faith-and-Hope, @Sans911 for listening to my drivel. 

I like your new avatar much better than my pick, it’s a great find. It did put a smile on my dial this morning. It had a bit of Helen ready "yes I am woman, hear me roar" about it. I know that song is not your era but I hope you’ve heard it before. It’s pretty awesome. Think it should be resurrected. 😊

Night  💜🤗

[Faith-and-Hope]

She is resurrected in us every time we sing it @Teej ..... 😏

👋 @CheerBear @Sans911 .....

[Teej]

I wish I had daughters to teach them that song @Faith-and-Hope. It doesn’t work so well with boys :face_with_rolling_eyes:

how are you? 

[Sans911]

Never drivel @Teej. Ever. Why do I follow you, @CheerBear and others? Because you speak your truth, you speak with raw honesty and vulnerability, you're intelligent and smart as well as caring and kind. These for me are qualities I resonate with and are drawn to. Don't stop being you. Hugs and hugs

[Faith-and-Hope]

Agreed @Sans911 ❣️

I’m not bad at the moment @Teej.  S2 is still in a struggle with himself and self-sabotaging ..... but conversation is happening between us regarding that, so there is still opportunity to help him with it .... holding him in the light and hoping he will get over this wall, this time, rather than there having to be a next time.

Making slow headway with D3 too ..... she is coming with me to uni tomorrow to get sorted with what she is not going to do .... and see if there is something she feels she can do, this time, rather than there having to be a next time ......

[Teej]

@Sans911 Thank you for you kind words. It turns out I’m not so good at receiving them as giving them. My first response was not at all gracious and wanted to debate you 🤨:face_with_rolling_eyes:. 

I have thought about you today. I suspect we have a few things similar happening. Today I fought pretty hard for me and I think I wanted to drag you with me in the fighting part. It gets so hard when we are in the thick of it or even in the just trying to find a way through part. 

@Faith-and-Hope You are in the fighting for your kids battle. It’s good d3 is going with you. I hope she can find just one subject to start again. Fingers crossed s2 works it out. It may be a battle even if he does get through still though ........or it might just be my family trait. My darling handed his major paper in 1.5 hours late. He’s had 5 years of trying to get a paper in on time 😳. He’ll probably lose 25% of his marks straight up. 

I have a feeling though that your patience and perserverence might be way better at getting a good result though. 

[Sans911]

That post should have tagged you too @Faith-and-Hope but I have a numb brain today. It's been in overdrive for far too long.

[Teej]

If any of you have seen the pic I put up I’m really sorry. I completely was too smart for my own good. There was an offensive word I didn’t connect to at the time. I was too worried about covering part of the pic up with flowers.  It’s been moderated and rightfully so. I’m not going to attempt to put it up again changing the word. So sorry if I offended anyone. 

[Sans911]

@Teej - you can debate my compliment anytime you like. But I'll say two things about that. One, I can probably out shouty capitals at you, and two, I learnt some time ago that while I choke on compliments, I still act gracious and say thanks because you never know how genuine that compliment is or when you'll get another.

So here's another compliment. Thank you for thinking of me. I appreciate it. I never expect responses from people from anything I post or like. I'm always conscious of intruding in other's spaces, and it feels like sometimes I'm interrupting an important conversation.

Ugh, in the thick of it, fighting it or just trying to get through-why is it so hard and tiresome? I've fought my whole life for so many big and little things. Do you know I even had to fight to keep any clothes, toys, books, etc as a kid? They were constantly taken from me as a child by other children when I lived in a care home. So it makes sense doesn't it, fighting for 48 years is pretty wearing. I wonder how much more I have left. I'm scared that if I give up the fight, that's the end of me.