I'm in a nest

[Phoenix_Rising]

Good evening @mudsum @CheerBear @Former-Member @Shaz51 and all other nest dwellers. I am feeling proud of myself for staying off the forum all day. I am back to hunting for that balance between appreciating the connections here and yet knowing that it isn't healthy to spend TOO much time in Forum Land.

What page are you up to in TBKTS @CheerBear? I almost certainly won't be able to keep up with you, but I'll try. Maybe having the goal of keeping up with you will help me to focus!

I hope your mouth is feeling even less sore than last night, now @CheerBear. By the way, hearing how old @mudsum's LF are, made me realise I can't remember how old your LF are. I know they are pretty little LF. LF really are fun to play with. I'm one of those annoying people who, if I have the opportunity, plays with other peoples' LF, get them all totally hyperactive and over-tired, and then say goodbye, leaving the real grownups to deal with the LF. I don't have the remotest idea how to actually care for LF...I just like playing with them. I definitely wouldn't trust me to actually care for a LF without a proper grownup nearby.

@Former-Member I was thinking of you today and wondering how your DBT adventure went. I hope it was ok.

[CheerBear]

Hey @Phoenix_Rising - I was just writing a post and saying hi to you and the other nesters when I saw your email come up. I did wonder what you were up to today. I hoped that you were busy being calmly productive with a wide open window, but then noticed a post on the wave and don't think that was maybe the case now. I hope you can find that balance here. I think it will be a work in progress one for me 😛 I am up to chapter 12 "The Unbearable Heaviness of Remembering". I have found the last couple of chapters very hard, so I am being really careful and making sure I do nice things in between. Have you started reading it again? I haven't said how old my fish are, which is probably why you don't remember 😉 I wish I could say a little tiny bit more about us than I do, but I am scared, which I am sure you understand. They're all little school age though. I have a feeling they would love you, and I think you'd really like them too. I have them ask sometimes how anyone 'let' me be a mum because in lots of ways I didn't really grow up either, and don't really ever plan to 😄 I used to be the same before I had them, in terms of really just hyping kids up, laughing a lot and then enjoying returning them.

@Former-Member - In my post I was going to ask about your DBT too, and say that I hope it was a positive experience. @Phoenix_Rising - Have you ever 'done' DBT? It's mostly as group work yeah? I am curious about it if either of you feel up to sharing at some stage.

@mudsum - Hope today was a good day for you 🙂

Hi other nesters and nest passerby-ers

My mouth is super sore today and I think something has gone wrong because the side of my cheek and jaw is swollen bigger rather than less now 😞 It's put a real dampener on my mood today and I have to go back to the dentist tomorrow. It's an emergency appointment, which means there's no appointment at all, and I could spend most of the day waiting to be seen. I'm now hoping I will be able to sleep tonight and that I can keep the pain in check with the little amount of pain medication I can take while I am here as the only grown up around. My case manager had to cancel our appointment and while it's rebooked for early next week, I am frustrated. I want this house mess sorted out. I also had to cancel my mh worker tomorrow for the dentist, so more frustration there too. I hate it when life gets in the way of me trying to sort out life 😕

I think I am going to go to and lie in bed watching a movie on my laptop. I need something to distract me from my mouth tonight. Not sure what I will watch though because I am pretty picky with tv/movies. I also really feel like I need something on my jaw/cheek but the idea of an ice pack in this freezing cold just doesn't sit well. Clearly I am frustrated and not sure of what will help all around tonight 😛 Grrrr and blegh.

Hope tonight is good for you all.

[mudsum]

love to you all, @CheerBear and @Phoenix_Rising @Former-Member

in my blankeys

hope my copy of TBKTS is delivered soon !!!!!

[NikNik]

Wow there's a few of you reading TBKTS @mudsum
Maybe you should create a 'Book Club' I'm keen to read it again, so I would happily join!

[CheerBear]

I'd love to be part of a Book Club here @NikNik. I think there are a couple of book themed threads around - I might have even started one but from memory it didn't really go anywhere. Maybe if we have it as more of a book club kind of thing though, with a particular book each fortnight/month, it might be fun and get some conversations going. We could kick it off with The Body Keeps the Score seeing as there are a few of us reading it at the moment.

@phoenx_rising and @mudsum - what do you think?

[Former-Member]

Hi @CheerBear and everyone. 💟💕
May I join your nest again?
I've been feeling very alone this week.
Just tried to have a nap, but kept having panic attacks, so I'll give up on that.
Will get moving and do washing etc.
Cuppa first though. ☕

I had the same thing happen when I had my tooth removed CheerBear.
So incredibly painful. I ended up on anti biotics.
I hope you're ok.
Bug hugs to you. 🐛🐌🐉🐲🐞🐝❤

The Body Keeps the Score book sounds interesting. I think I'll look into getting it.

Anyway, I hope your mouth/tooth settles soon.

[CheerBear]

I would LOVE for you to join us in the nest @Former-Member, whenever you feel like coming past.

I'm sorry to hear you're feeling alone 😞 You're not alone here and lots of us think of you often.

Panic attacks suck. Teeth suck too, though mine is a little better today (hopefully because I'm not moving off the lounge today).

Want a laugh? Guess what I just did? Locked myself out of our house. It's covered in security screens and big tough locks. No match for a sneaky cheerbear with a handy Philips-head though 😅💪 It either says a lot about how much practice I've had breaking in to places my banana brain has locked me out of, or about how much the house may look secure but isn't actually. I'm going for the first option in that sentence, because the latter sounds like the stuff of past nightmares.

Bug hugs back Bella 🐛🐝😙

[Former-Member]

Lol. @CheerBear I'm glad you got back in.
Just making a super strong expresso, to help me get moving
Put another log in fire.
House gets freezing, warmer outside, but I'm hiding. 😮😂
Family reunion this weekend. Eek! Causes triggers just knowing. I can't/won't go. Way too triggering. Used to force myself to go, not anymore. It sucks because my daughter won't go without me, so she misses out, but they're all stuck up fake sh## heads anyway. 😂😂
I try not to let it bother me that she has no family, but, who am I kidding? It still bothers me. "GET OVER IT". 😮😣😨😂

Good to hear you're resting on the couch.
"Snuggle Buggle" 😀
Cuppa for you. ☕

My last one for the day.

[CheerBear]

Having my last cup of coffee for the day now too @Former-Member ☕

I love the way you said what you did about your family gathering - you sound strong. It sucks that you both miss out but I think you know that there's probably not a whole lot of anything positive that you and your daughter are actually missing out, and really it seems as if it's your family who are missing out on you both.

I'm a bit jealous of your fire! We only have the wall heater. The one that has caused me huge issues this week. I think I would love a fire, though the upfront cost of wood and the whole lighting it thing makes me appreciate that I can turn a switch and feel warm (when the heater doesn't blow half the power in the house out 😒)

Hope the rest of your afternoon is good and that cuppa hit the spot 😊

[Former-Member]

Turning on a heater sounds much easier, @CheerBear 😂
But, yes, there is something really snuggly about a fire.
Is your heater working ok now?

I'm amazed that just hearing about my family can cause me to be in turmoil for days.
I wish I knew how to "get over it".
I do all I know to do, but it still really triggers.
If only I had an answer.
Moving, but having complex PTSD makes that seem impossible at the moment.

I'll keep searching for an answer to feeling well.

Are the anti inflammatories working ok?

🌷🌼🌺🌹🌸🌻