Hi @mudsum, @CheerBear, @Former-Member, @Phoenix_Rising and any other nesters 👋
This is my overdue response, sorry I've been preoccupied (otherwise known as flailing around in crisis trying to work out how to breathe again) but I'm ok this morning. I seem to be making a habit of it even more lately.
DBT was ok and really not ok for me. It bought up strange emotions and something fairly minor happened that I turned into something huge and worth SHing over but managed not to with lots of support. Such is my brain that is wired to take a small step and make it look like roof jumping :face_with_rolling_eyes:😳. My emotions jump in and are in complete control before my brain has a chance to backtrack and I flip out. One of the things that happened is I forgot what it's like to sit in a room of people with BPD (which by the way is really cool but I take on everyone's stuff and add it to my existing emotions so it's going to be a long few months). Secondly I think I've had my head in the sand again with some of my BPD traits and so when brainstorming them in group I realised I had nowhere to hide and had to accept that I really do have them and putting my head in the sand about it is not helping me. So I have survived and will go again ( it never was an option to drop out). Homework was to try a different mindfulness activity each day and record how i went and describe my experience with it. It was a lovely group of women and I felt really safe in the group, the facilitators were really good too.
It's bought a huge smile to my dial to see the progression of your rug @CheerBear. And a downward facing smile reading about your tooth ☹️.
Sorry you're still struggling @Former-Member too ☹️ but lovely to see you here 😊. I hope you get some warmth and sunshine today.
@Phoenix_Rising I've been following you along too. Im so sorry that the whole psychologist thing is causing so much distress. I totally understand you needing support from someone who understands you but also someone who can meet your needs too. I am very much in that battle with finding a psychiatrist. Much of my breakdown over the past fortnight is still over a really bad appointment with my psychiatrist who I am now petrified of seeing in a fortnight. However I am grateful to have my therapist who meets majority of my needs and she totally gets me. My biggest problem is I arrive often in crisis mode and rarely get to do therapy as we are managing distress 😔:face_with_rolling_eyes:.
@mudsum I'm sorry you are experiencing difficulties with friends. I also read your post on the other thread. I can only imagine how difficult that is let alone how completely frustrating it must be for you. I'm hoping you are feeling calmer today about that.
Apart from that this week has been teaching my youngest to drive a manual car. He is doing ok but my car is really hard to drive so it's really hard for him, the good news once he gets it in my car he'll be able to drive any car. We've had four lessons together. Last night I threw him in the deep end and he did really well. He had never got above second gear but he drove home 30 km in the dark, peak hour traffic, through the hills with kangaroos around doing 90km an hour.......and we both lived 😄 and so did everyone else on the roads and no animals were sacrificed in the process. I did have all fingers and toes crossed. He has to learn quickly now as he needs to for work. We have to get his hours up and him driving ready for his test in under 3 months 😱. It's something I've been so anxious over but now it's started I'm feeling a bit more confident. Luckily I think he'll be a good driver. He's doing it pretty naturally. phewwwww
i hope you all have a lovely long weekend. Crossing my fingers your tooth gets better @CheerBear,
hugs to those who want them.............which reminds me. I wanted to share my virtual hugs 🤗 story. I'm not a huggy person in real life....I'm the uncomfortable awkward hugger. It never feels natural. When I started in the forum I received lots of virtual hugs and it freaked me out a bit at first. Over time I started to actually feel kind of nice having a virtual hug and you can attach whatever emotions you want as no one sees your reaction. Long story short, there were times it really helped to have one so I adopted it for others too knowing that you can roll your eyes at them or secretly enjoy them and I'll never know. I choose to do it on the off chance it makes you feel better and hope it doesn't make anyone feel worse. I've actually now been known to ask for a virtual hug when feeling really alone 😊.
on that note 💜🤗💐
I just came from the beach with Kira. Hope you are moving forward.