My special place

[outlander]

That sounds nice @Snowie enjoy your walk out in the sun

[Snowie]

The pdoc was meant to come in at 11 today, then 8t got changed to 2 and still no sign of him. 😡 I asked a nurse and she doesn't even know. 

My sh and si thoughts seem to be getting high during the days. All the nurses recommend is distraction but i can't concentrate on anything long enough to distract me. Also if one more suggests for me to distract myself, I think I am going to lose it. That is their only suggestion ever.

I really wish I had the means to at the moment 😔😔

[Faith-and-Hope]

Hearing you @Snowie .... and sitting with you.

💜💐

[outlander]

Hugs @Snowie
I really hope they start to listen to you and suggest something else. Can you do anything fom what have learnt in group? Sitting with you 🌻

[Snowie]

I dont see how talking to them will help. They say to tell them if I have urges and I have before so they suggest distraction.  I went to a group today and almost everything they put up on the board I could relate too. That was just depressing. I can't concentrate anyway, slept like crap last night. I am just going to hide away for now. I can't let them see what I have done, I'll never be able to leave. Sorry, I hate mi and the crap that goes with it 

[outlander]

Do you want to talk to me for a little while?

[Sans911]

Can you not tell them that distraction isn't helping?

Do you know what would help you to cope? I understand that if you tell them what you've done you'll fear you'll stay longer. But you're carrying this massive burden alone, and it's weight is unbearable. But not seeking help with it, you're denying yourself a chance to get better, find other coping skills, and to heal and recover. I'm sure you prefer not to self harm.

Not only that,  you're risking your health with potential infection, delayed healing, etc.

I'm not here to judge you @Snowie

but I'm really concerned and worried about you.

❤️❤️❤️❤️

[outlander]

@Snowie^^ do you think you should tell them what youve done?im really  worried about you. 

You should be in a safe environment 

Can you try to talk to them again? I know your having a right shit of a time atm and the med changes arent helping anything right now.

[Snowie]

@Sans911 @outlander I have told them distraction is not helping. They struggle to know what to say after that. All I get is it's good you are trying, it's good you have elastic bands on you wrists. I get the well ummm keep trying. 

I dont even know what would help. I have tried so many different things the last few days. 

I just want it to be done. 

[Zoe7]

Stopping by to send you hugs @Snowie  I have taken one step off our seat on Neptune today but happy to sit there with you for company anytime Hon