@outlander @Former-Member @Former-Member
I'm sorry to make you think it perhaps wasn't ok. the appt was fine, really ok. This woman is super validating, caring and very kind, and for that, and my own sake, I felt it was only fair I be vulnerable and honest. I told her some things about my SI that no-one else knows. She is a suicide prevention counsellor after all, so I defeat my own purposes by being dishonest or hiding what it really going on & where my thoughts are at. Unfortunately, the after effects for me is that I feel exposed and raw, which is difficult for me to deal with. Tears are very close to the surface now, and I shed more earlier when I was discussing admission issues with the lead nurse from the mh respite centre. And my SI is very strong,which is causing me ongoing physical symptoms which are a constant reminder of my discomfort. But I'm doing the best I can to be ok, so for today that means I help others feel ok to take the focus off myself.
