Someone help me

[CheerBear]

Maybe it's not f-ing up though @Bubbles3. Maybe it's just learning what works and what doesn't.

You could try and say hi and if it gets too much retreat back here for a while. I do that sometimes at Friday Feast 🙂

Totally up to you though

[Bubbles3]

Another one of those days. Cant get anything right.
Got kids home for school holidays and i dont know how im going to cope.
Hubby is going to be going for a few nights soon. What im i going to do

[Former-Member]

Hi @Bubbles3
sorry that it sounds overwhelming at the moment! I get like that too with everything... Would it help to have a plan for some of it? especially the few days that hubby is away. Like what you will do with the kids to keep busy etc and help time move through it all?
My kids are already coming up with what they want to do in the holidays... (ours dont start here yet). They want to make ooblek slime, go to the beach (they're insane its still too cold but we'll play on the sand), and they also only want to have bbq's for dinner every day because we just got a bbq! I'm planning on seeing if i can find a few cheap kids movies to put on for quiet time sometimes and going to see if there are some board games at the back of the cupboard that we havent used in a while.. and thinking about planning a day trip away somewhere.. maybe. but not sure im up for that either.
You've already got one thing right though.. you've posted here 🙂 and im sure you're kids are safe, loved and fed! because i can hear that you are a caring mum. Somedays all those simple and essential thigns are enough.

[Bubbles3]

i could do all those things to @Former-Member but coz of the med change over im finding it hard to even get out of bed and to even look after myself let alone 3 kids. at the moment they a watching a movie just to give me some peace and quite. i do try but i wish i could try even harder. everything is just so hard at the moment. and i dot know what to do.

[Former-Member]

it can be so hard @Bubbles3 - im sorry you're struggling with the med change, hopefully it will ease up soon for you. I guess it might just be about recognising what you can do each day and giving yourself a pat on the back for getting through what you can right now. Glad they're watching a movie so you have a chance to rest for a bit.

[Bubbles3]

im lost

[BambiFawn]

dear @Bubbles3, putting the kids in front of a movie, whilst you clean or take time out for yourself really helps.  But checking on the kids every now and again is good, and taking them some nutritious snacks or drinks.  

When I was unwell after my brother died, I put my baby in childcare from 4 months old and it really helped, I got the respite then from 7am- 5pm. That really helped me and because my child had no siblings, she got to play with other kids too and learn. 

I cannot take those formative years back in my child's life, but I wish I'd gone on medication earlier.  Though it took me about 7 medications, before I found the right one for me dear lovely @Bubbles3.  So It can be trial and error.  But keep persevering and everything will work out.

[Bubbles3]

thanks @BambiFawn

[Bubbles3]

you know i just sit here. my head is spinning and i cant stop it. i want everything to stop but it wont. nothing will slosttop. the pain is to much. hubby home now and i still dont know what to do with myself. i feel so lost. i hate it. i dot k ow what to do with myself. hubby is going to clean the house for me, which makes me feel so bad. i feel so suicidal. i wish i wasnt here. its all to hard. talking on here is great but it doesnt change anything. i want my new med to start working so im not in this pain. kelly is with me and she makes me feel even more sad. 

[BambiFawn]

Hey @Bubbles3, 

Everything will work out.  Stay positive my friend.  Tell your Doctor if the medication is not working. 

God has a plan for your life, to prosper you and give you hope and a future it says in scripture luv. Try not to have suicidal thoughts.  I was told when I was feeling suicidal, that it is a permanent solution to a temporary problem, and that snapped me out of it.  I now tell myself ' my body is the temple of God. Job was one Biblical character who felt like that but he overcame with God.