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Re: **Trigger warning** Stuck in world of sadness and SI

I don't know @outlander

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Will keep a watch out for the second one. Seen the one with jasper @Sans911 might be cause im on my phone..

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Can see first pic again. Weird
Waiting on the second pic

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Still waiting on second pic @Sans911 do you still want to continue on this thread with your pics for tonight?

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Awe second pics up hea cute too. Yes he does look small in this pic

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@outlanderI can stay here tonight. Will move to other thread tommorow. Not sure yet whether this thread is entirely finished & done; Ive returned here before. I want to try to move on now if I can. I really have had enough of everything that I have been through. And as my GP pointed out today, one more hospital admission may close the door on my nursing career entirely. I'm just going to take my night meds (and morning ones cause I forgot) so I will be awake for about another 45mins or so.

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You can still use both threads @Sans911 depending on how your feeling or what you want to talk about.
I guess the best thing to move forward is to not look back, take each day as it comes ans keep adding positive things into your life.
Lets hope for no more hospital admissions. Do you mind me asking if respite counts as an admission? Im thinking not really but could be wrong there.... in my opinion it shouldnt be.
I am not surprised your over everything but you worthy of all the wonderful things in life too. I think your on the right track. Stumbles and falls are always going to happen but i like what you said yesterday about being in control of your actions. Keep learning and practicing those skills youve learnt. Youve taught me alot already and finding it really helpful. Im alway more than happy to run through an exercise to help you cope and manage too like walk through the steps as you do for me.

Dont feel obligated to answer this but have you considered volunterring at the hospital? Im not really sure of what to do but have heard you can do volunteer stuff to or perhaps working even one day a week at somewhere abit quieter like a respite centre or different ward besides the ed?

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The respite stays I have are not admissions in the true sense, as the idea of it is toould  avert crisis or SH/SA admissions@outlander. Although it is attached to a nearby hospital which has a mental health unit.I can also call the respite centre when I am not even staying there- I usually get the head nurse- and chat about any difficulties I am having and need to talk them out. I can call anytime day or night really. Most of the regular staff know me even if I don't know them.

I could volunteer at one of the hospitals, however, I am already dealing with grief over the loss of potentially never being able to work in acute settings either temporarily or permanently. This would further compound those feelings of loss. I have discussed with my GP going back to work in the emergency department just one shift a week (about 6hours)and only looking after a scheduled mental health patient requiring one to one nursing. These patients are often a danger to themselves or others and must be watched constantly at the bedside, even if they are sleeping. So it's often not physically or mentally challenging, however, there have been many occasions patients become abusive and I have had trays and other things thrown at me. I just step away and let security deal with them, which isn't nice, but necessary.

The places where I have received good care like the respite centre I couldn't work there as they have records on me so it's a conflict of interest.

Teaching you exercises helps me remember the skills I have learnt and reinforces the fact they do work when practiced regularly. I have always liked teaching people things, be it student nurses or just anyone else. I am glad you find them benefical @outlander

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I'm going to log out lil Sis. I'm being pulled into sleep. Thank you for being here tonight ❤️💜❤️💜

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Thats good about respite not being counted as an admission. I know it helps you and it seems like a good resource to have when you need it @Sans911
That sounds good about the idea of one-one nursing but when your ready or feel you can. That sounds scary brave woman you are!! . It was just a thought anyways as i know thats what you love to do and how much your hurting not being able to. Im sorry if i upset you bringing that up too.

Well your more than welcome to keep teaching me anything you like and im very grateful for that too. Learning is one of my favourite things. Im signing up for that course i wanted to do in may the human anatomy one.
Here for you anytime too ❤