**Trigger warning** Stuck in world of sadness and Suicidal Ideation

[Sans911]

@outlander this lady is one of 2 that I have so that I can when one isn't working I have another to keep an eye on me. I should be grateful with the level of support that I have apparently (was told this by other mh worker several times before)

[Former-Member]

@Sans911Do not for one minute listen to the garbage that comes out of her mouth.

You are NOT taking up space and the world is a better place because you are in it. I am so sorry that it has come to this and you feel this way. I know my words will not mean a lot at this stage, but please keep reaching out for help, on here if need be. 

You are improtant @Sans911 . YOU are WORTH IT and YOU DO MATTER 

[Zoe7]

@Sans911 someone who has never been in this position just does not understand - at all! This is not a choice, we don't choose to be so low that we cannot see any options, we do not choose to NOT want to end our lives because some MH so-called professional tells us there is another way - it is crap - they have NO idea how dark it is when we are in that place. Would we choose to live if the world was on our side - maybe - but it does not ever seem that it is. It does not even matter that people say they care because we don't care about ourselves. This is a sh*t place to be in - you know it, I know it and anyone that has ever been 'here' knows it also - and we also know that unless you have lived in this darkness you have absolutely NO right in making any sort of judgements.

I hear you Sans911 - I hear you!

[outlander]

Exactly what @Former-Member said! @Sans911

Ok so you have support but when your in that state you dont think of that. They also come under i dont want to burden them.

Im hearing you sis. Keep reaching out

[Sans911]

I'm so sorry @outlander. I know you have really struggled this weekend. I just needed to vent. I have been watching over you. I'm sorry too if I've been no comfort to you at this time

[outlander]

Well said! @Zoe7 i have been there in that space. Its an experience unless you have been there you just dont get it and that coming from a mh professional is very unprofessional in my opinion

[outlander]

@Sans911 i want to be here. I CHOOSE to be here.
You are worth it and are enough. Dont be sorry, your with me in spirit ❤

[Former-Member]

@Sans911, @Zoe7 is right. Unless people have been through that then it doesn't matter how little or lots of training they have had, they just do not understand. This is NOT YOUR FAULT. We are not giving up on you 

[Sans911]

@Former-Member @Zoe7 @outlander I know you're all struggling big time too. I'm sorry to burden you with my troubles too. Mine seems incomparable to all of yours put together. I admire you all for your strengths in adversity.

[Zoe7]

No we aren't @Sans911 and @Former-Member is 100% right - this is not your fault - not even a little bit. These so-called 'professionals' need to walk even a minute in our shoes to get just how debilitating, hopeless and lost it feels when you cannot see any other options. We are all in this together @Sans911 - I know it does not feel like it - but we each do get how incredibly hard this is - and none of us is in a worse place than anyone else - just different - but different isn't judged on and scale Sans - it just is.

So we are 'just' here - but here with each other - and we get it....