**Trigger warning** Stuck in world of sadness and Suicidal Ideation

[Sans911]

Hey @Former-Member. I'll consider it, ok? Its just that there's nothing they can do or give me to make me feel better. Talking to someone might help, but might also make things worse. A lot of anger bubbling under the surface recently, and I hate anger. It's so destructive. I don't want to be rude to hospital staff, and/or get another black mark against me for being uncooperative.

How are you doing today? I was coming to say hi to you on the Good Morning thread next

[outlander]

How can i be your angel when your mine? I might have to come up with another line i cant see you budging to give it up

[outlander]

Oops forgot to tag you into both msgs! @Sans911 reabove 2 msgs

[Sans911]

@outlander - I actually use that line from a very dear friend whom I shared a house with in London. You might need her permission first lol! So no, I definitely won't budge from it. I if didn’t know you better, I would class that last sentence as insulting! (just kidding 🙃)

[Sans911]

@outlander duh, I can figure out most of the time who the message is intended for. You dope. I sometimes forget to tag too. All is good.

[outlander]

Well arent you lucky you know me well then @Sans911 😏😏
I always forget to add those to the orginal msg lol which is on prev page.

Hmmm i dont know of another line 'sis' doesnt seem enough sometimes

[outlander]

Oh name calling now how dare you 😋😜

[Sans911]

@outlander- didn't you read I have a lot of suppressed anger? It has to be directed somewhere. I figure sarcastic wit is appropriate under the circumstances.

have you been over to the Good Morning thread today? Be careful hey? Serious shenanigans going on there. You might be forever corrupted by the lovesick @TAB and @Former-Member

[Former-Member]

@Sans911,I felt I needed the hospital last weekend because my anxiety and anger/agitation was out of control but when you think again, there's nothing anyone can do and it has a good chance of making me worse ,same as talking to someone whoose assumptions and questions can P*** you off,or after my experiences,don't want anymore crap wrote about me,that at the end of the day may or may not be true.After a pig cop telling me my private thoughts to the mental health nurse last year,my trust and faith in anyone is little.My anger is a problem,angry at myself,the world,and those who contributed to my breakdown through putting up with them etc.

But please put safety measures in place for yourself.

I'm ok did do a big walk this morning,took a iron tablet yesterday and this morning,wasn't as breathless and walked better but hills the weakness is in the legs.Wont take another iron tablet now.Losing iron every six  months or so.But been home and tired, been on the floor,did a bit but know I need a sleep, trying to keep going for my mental thoughts which as you know I have my moments.

[outlander]

Ive already been corrupted lol. Ive veen watching thm for weeks now @Sans911 well sarcastic wit is alot better than other options
Dont worry i can handle it 😉