when is it time for hospital

[outlander]

Thanks @Bubbles3

@Sans911 i was talking to Queenie on another thread and shes been helping me sort it out. I liked as in had the whole butterflies feeling for her and found out yesterday shes married and its wrong for me to like a married woman so im trying to get over that. But im so confused by my own sexuality now. I mean are those feelings real? Does that mean i am bisexual? Confused i am just to add it all into the mix.

And these flashbacks are upsetting me and im trying to hard to try not to let it get to me but it is and its all a big mess
And now i have to go shopping and my paranoia doubles in a shopping setting but i promised my sisters.

And i go to my hotel soon. So still have to pack and i have no motivation to do so and its just a big mess and my emotions are all over the place and im upset because i cant regulate them
And i should probably take a breath!

Sorry i shouldnt put all that on you but i trust you and thats no easy to come by as you know

[Sans911]

@outlander we can't help who we like or get attracted to. It's what we do with those feelings next. You're still young, and there's nothing wrong with wanting to explore your sexuality.

Heck, even at my age I'm still exploring my own sexuality as well. It's quite normal hun. And yes, I have been with women and men. That doesn't make me bisexual, heterosexual or homosexual. I was still exploring what it was like. It was certainly interesting.

Right now I have very strong feelings for a man I saw for a few months in the UK 4 years ago. He was married at the time, but we had a strictly sexual relationship only. Now he's separated, we talk by what's app frequently, but what will be come out of this relationship I don't know. He has teenage girls. And I won't go back and live on the UK.

Yes, take a breather. It's ok to feel these things. It's ok to be all over the place for a while. But your overwhelmed, and at some point you need to unpack and unjumble those feelings so they sit a little easier with you.

And you can talk about pretty much anything with me, and I'll do my best to answer you with honesty and kindness. If it's too difficult to answer, or too personal I'll tell you.

[outlander]

Ok sis its just confusing for me. I mean i cant have her shes married for a start.
I dont know what to feel. @Sans911 i dont know how id go with another women in any experience. Theres only one way to find out i suppose. I wouldn't even dare approach her now. And esp not just for a sexual relationship/experience either. I doubt id see her again i havent seen her fir like 2 yrs since i first had feelings for her.
Maybe its telling me that im ready for a relationship? I mean im interested in sex but id want a relationship too but i guess sometimesthat doesn't happen either.

Your situation is tricky too esp with feelings involved and the location. Tricky stuff hey....

[outlander]

Ill be back to chat later got to get ready to head to the hotel will be able to chat more soon

[Sans911]

@outlander yes, it's tricky. And you're never going to know unless you try it. That takes a fair bit of courage, even dating the opposite sex, and there's no right or wrong way in relationships. It's a give and take.

I think for now you have a lot on your plate. To add a relationship to that might make things really complicated.

Just focus on you for now. Becoming more stable and less reactive. The right relationship will be there waiting for you

[outlander]

Yeah i guess so @Sans911 sometime i just want to be normal and have normal or sort of normal relationships. But your right i can hardly handle myself let alone someone else too so ill have to put it all on hold for now and just let things flow. Thanks for your help i really appreciate it ❤

[Shaz51]

I am  here with you. @outlander 

[outlander]

@Sans911 @Former-Member will you sit with me for a bit just having a moment. I seen my scar really in its entirety after i got out of the spa and gave me a panic attack it cane on so suddenly it nearly made me crumpled to the floor.
Ill be ok and will go back to the other thread soon just need to sit for a bit

[Former-Member]

@outlanderI am here with you sis, not leaving your side tonight❤❤❤

[outlander]

Thanks @Former-Member i hate that its come on now. I was going really well. That damn scar. Not like its hard to miss 😞