when is it time for hospital

[outlander]

@Sans911 giving lots of hugs back. it really does mean alot to me that your here.

wow showing more and more simialrities as we go along hey

im lucky that they didnt send the cops around to my house. very lucky god only know where i would eb now and the repercussions of it all

we can hang in here together sis ok

if you need me jsut tag me along. ill sit here all night hugging you if need be ok

[outlander]

@soul the fog lifted a little bit but now its back. not as bad as last night but im really struggling yet again. its so hard to describe. its like a new feeling for me, one i havent had or havent had for a long while. its really confusing and hard and i dont know how to shake it off as such

im trying to do that and put up walls but im not very good at it. everything is so overwhelming right now.

im hotel searching but i have to wait till my wages go in to actually book anything so im stuck at the moment for deposits and things. i really do want to get wawy. what your descirbing- reading a book, lsitening to music, going for walks all in peace is really what im after even for a few days

[Sans911]

@outlander I am right here, sitting beside you.We will struggle through the night together. If you use Booking.com you often don't need a deposit.

[outlander]

its better to struggle together @Sans911 than to be alone. ive got that same cant explain struggling overly anxious feeling again tonight and its hard tos it with but im going to jsut sit here with you?

would a general conversation help you..? might help us both..

[Sans911]

@outlanderWhen I was doing my DBT course, it was suggested that sometimes just acknowledging how you are feeling, locating in the body where the emotional pain is, and just sitting until the feelings pass, strange as it might seem, can actually be helpful. It's called urge surfing. If I am at risk of SH I can sometimes do this and it works. I am actuallu trying it tonight, and was part of the reason I went for a walk earlier. My emotional pain is always in my chest, and can feel like my heart is being squeezed.

I am up for a general conversaton..whatever you want to talk about. By the way, I always thought your name came from the show, and was surprised today when you explained it. I know @Former-Member calls you Claire sometimes, so doubly confused. The last part of my user name here refers to my occupation. It is the American emergency number.

[Sans911]

@outlanderI know I am having a bad night when I have to wait 30 mins for an online support service and get disconnected by them.

[outlander]

@Sans911
I gathered the last bit of your name was like that. Like an emergency. Yeah i was actually here before but left and couldnt work out a name. This one suited it. Yeah niqua calls me claire. Shes says that i remind her of the actress in the tv show outlander.

[outlander]

Do you want to walk through those steps with me? The acknowledge and locating feelings? Im haopt to help or listen or both as you go through the steps?

Can u call them back, its important you get the right supports too @Sans911

[Former-Member]

Thanks for making me smile @outlander,can just picture your mother getting your message.I just got a message from the one who is getting married,I sent the reply last week by snail mail ,thought I'd do the etiquette buying a card and they didnt get it.Had to say I can't make it.

[Sans911]

@outlanderFirst of all you need to be somewhere quiet and no interruptions. It only takes 5-10mins to do this, but you can go longer if you need to or are having trouble to locate any sensations. Have you got a quiet space for a little bit? Also, if it helps, you can put music on, but something soft and not too intrusive.