when is it time for hospital

[outlander]

Oh dear Bella. I hope you get better soon. I know the feeling of have a head explosion from a sinus infection. I got get them as much now just the usual allergies which I seem to have under control now thanks to a good antihistamine!. Try and get in to see your gp today or tomorrow, they should be able to help you. Youd be waiting hours in an ed but its better than nothing so theres an option as well.
Good idea, try and see an ENT speacialist as they are well qualified in this area a lot so will have the best options for you.

Muisc to my ears. I love music too. Theres always a song to suit every mood. Same as poems too. Havent written one of those for while. Hows your poems going. I seen the poem you done for greenpea. Thats a very beautiful one.
Love and hugs to you too @Former-Member 
xoxo

[Owlunar]

Hi @outlander

I don't mind watching over - I feel like the kind wise owl of legend - being gentle is natural to me -

And about the gory stuff - I watch Criminal Minds and true crimes series on TV - not that I am into crime but rather the solving of it - if I had been able to study medicine which had been my choice but not my chance - having to leave school when I was 16 - I would have liked to have been a forensic pathologist

Yes - I know - that is not the same in real life as in fiction - but I love picky stuff when it comes to work - what they call protocol - I am an accountant and that requires the same sort of picky thinking

Stange to write about it here but yes

I had a girl-friend who cried when her cat ate a mouse - to me that is natural and the cat has no scruples - when she was young mine used to catch mice and eat them - cats are good at it and why bother - who wants mice around

I get it though - we can all see something worse - I saw a cat having kittens one - now that's really interesting

Dec - with the colourful past 

[MDT]

@Owlunar Two 'friends' of mine started calling me lurch btw. I hated it. Needless to say I stopped hanging out with them, but not just because of a silly name they gave me. They were just getting on my nerves and such. So was that whole group.
Even one of the dad's started calling me it, so i got my own back and called him Fester. Or at least decided I would start calling him that if it came to it. Short and bald in other words.
I find that people often need to make remarks on it. A friend yesterday joked about a skyscraper and whether or not it was as tall as me... I just said "yeh man, points for originality" and we moved on. It gets really boring after while.

I used to be very thin in high school. My body type is ectomorph which means that I am naturally thin like that. It's genetics from my mum's side. It's taken me about 9-10 months of gym to get to where I am now. Not as thin.
Most guys are bulk af but it is because they are shorter and have stockier body types. I sometimes feel like this is the reason why I am single. But then that is an absurd thing to think.
I thought once I start working full time/part time after uni then I might start really putting in effort into gym. At the moment I go just for activity and mental health reasons. I have built a bit of muscle. I can bench press 20kgs. Which for me is a massive improvement lol. I basically need to work twice as hard and eat twice as much as any other guy in order to put on the same amount of weight and muscles because my body will metabolise the food quickly.
At the end of the day I guess I really do not care what others think. I've been called lanky in the past which makes me feel like I am actually thin.. but I don't know if they just say that because it is a throw away or what... It really bugs me. So long as I don't show that it bugs me then it's okay.
I see photos of myself sometimes and I hate it, with a passion.
It's why I prefer winter and autumn tbh because I can wear longer sleeves to cover up my long limbs.

All in all it's a crap situation. But I guess maintaining the bare minimum is good for now. I tried personal training but I found the guy was irritating to me. He kept increasing the weight which I know he is meant to do, but I could barely lift the damn thing.
There are a lot of things that bug me about my physical appearance but it used to be a lot worse.
Girls are confusing to me (no offence) so I don't really worry too much about how I look. Just put in effort, and I also look better than what I did at the start of the year. I got rid of my man boobs lol, they are bad but even worse when you are not fat xD

[outlander]

Thanks @Owlunar

I watch criminal minds, law and order, greys anatomy a heap more crime or health type shows.. I use to watch a show called All Saints with my nan all the time. I havent watched that in a long time though now. Ive got them on dvds but it reminds me a lot of my nana and im not ready to tackle those feelings yet. First yr of grieving for me so everything seems to be harder that way yet. The only thing I cant handle on those shows and thats the kids. Its a major trigger for me so I read the decsription first and if a kid appears to be a victim or involve SA I skip it because I cant handle it.
Ive had to resort to more light hearted things like the big bang theoray and things like mystery diners and cupcake wars and cooking shows atm.

Oh geez, as we have a paddock behind us we get the occasional mice and our dog thinks they are great fun to catch. Shes a chihuaua -god cant spell much! She cant fit in the small areas and throws them around the back yard. Its gross but I suppsoe its way of life. Actually im surprised she can fit in small spaces shes such a porky! Yet shes the same size as a cat lol.

Hmm not much on birthing animals, watched a dog and a horse. Thats enough for me.

[outlander]

ive just gotten my roster wholy good lord!!!!!

during the week i have to do

paddock checks every day

feed the allocated horses each day

i have 5 bathtubs to clean

4 owners ave requested paddock cleaning at 2 hrs each so 8 hrs paddock cleaning

and friday ive got a bunch of horses to hold for the farrier -hooves

[Owlunar]

Hi @MDT

I could say don't worry about it but you do - so yes - I understand

My brother and I were always thin and as for lanky - I have put on a little healthy weight in later years and it feels comfortable - it really is harder to put on weight than it is to lose it - something people don't really understand

And I am still lanky - and I think it means being tall and having long arms and legs - I never know where to put my arms and legs and my brother always had the same problem - I guess my nephew does too though I rarely see my family

One thing about getting older and I am an old owl now - truly - is that the things that bothered us when we were younger cease to do so. Unkind people say unkind things and it makes me wonder what they get out of it - truly - I think being tall is an advantage - being thin is okay

So if people call you Lurch - think whatever Addams family name you can think of - like Fester - too much hair - Cousin Itt - having strange preferences - Wednesday - overweight - Pugsley - you don't have to say it - just think it and try and not let it get to you

Seeing as I grew up surrounded by tall men it is not an issue to me - as I said before - a person has to be really tall before I see it - then I might have to look up but I wonder - yes - I wonder

If you can think less about what other people are thinking it will be easier because I can tell you what they are likely to be thinking - that they are thinking what they think is their short-comings - not about your height

Doing all that exercise is good for you now and even better for you in the future - when you feel bad reflect that you have to be pretty bright to get into university - the years I spent studying were really great and at the time the rest of my life was in tatters

I think you are okay - you connect with people well here

Dec

[outlander]

Oh geez....

[Bubbles3]

your sounding alot better @outlander.
how are you going

[outlander]

No not really @Bubbles3
I might have to go to ed yet. I promised my pop i wouldnt but i might have to

[Bubbles3]

why @outlander. what up.......if you dont mind me asking. whats been happening for you