when is it time for hospital

[outlander]

@Owlunar 

she didnt want to know until that phone call was made and now shes really angry 😞

i wont be able to dig myself out of this hole i dont think, and if i do ill be very surprised that i did.

my mother is due home any minute now and she wont talk to me without her bf being there, becasue as per usual they think they know best about everything.

they dont lean over shouting. they do the whole really angry quiet voice yet its very very intimidating.

and then after that its the dreaded deathly silience and walking around angry and its so tense you could cut the air like a blanket being torn. its scary and really uncomfrotable to be in.

ive gotten rid of the last tablet i had but i have a script in the car.  they dont know ive been on it for jsut over a week and im not telling them that. im goignt o say that i got the script today

it is so tense and im already so worked up. im jsut waiting now for them to wlak in the door.

[outlander]

they dont want it like that either @STORMGRL101 they want me to tell them in person. i have written a letter to my mum before trying to expain something but it got put in the bin with no response and her ignoring me for a few days.

i have no where to go, if im not at home then im in my car by myself usually sitting in a car park out of sight

[eth]

Thinking of you @outlander.  You are strong.  You have survived so much.  I wish I could help you IRL.

[Owlunar]

I know what that feels like @outlander 

My mother wouldn't talk to me for weeks and sometimes I didn't even know what I did was wrong - which is a really hard way to avoid doing whatever it was again.

I know you feel as if you have to tell them - but you have - and that's obviously making it better in one way but harder in another - so - stick to your guns and don't give them that script - I think you can get another one if you need it - yeah?

I think your mother is making a couple of huge errors here - she needs her bf to back her up and they do not know the best for you - they don't know everything - and they are not always right

I don't think you have told her you were abused did you. I guess you are pretty sure this would not be believed and would make it all worse for you - but one thing you can tell her is that this treatment - whatever way they do it - is not good and not necessary - you are an adult and deserve better

I am on your side - I wish I could really have your back

Dec

[outlander]

My mothers back

[outlander]

Shes not happy

[Owlunar]

Her choice

You could tell her that while it's quiet

btw - what a control freak!!!!

Dec

[Former-Member]

Hope you are alright - in a similar aftermath with my family right now @outlander 💜💙 You only DESERVE the help that you are being given.. and I know how hard it can be -- between knowing what's right but the fear of your Mum's reaction.. and the hate of the tension.

My Mum does a similar thing - she death stares me and goes into a silent treatment. Then takes away devices usually in the midst of things, even though I am not a kid anymore. It is ridiculous

[outlander]

She hasnt said anything yet. Her bf will be home in 10 minutes and its already awkward here. Its making me sick yet again

[eth]

Hoping you can get through this @outlander.  Thinking of you.