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I have finally gotten home and am exhausted - it has been a very long day!

@Faith-and-Hope @BlueBay @MDT @outlander @Snowie @Sans911 @Shaz51 and all who pass through...

DBT went okay today - I was able to talk again - not much but a little - it does get a little easier each time but I am still very guarded 

I spent the 2 hours in between DBT and my pdoc appointment trying to find a present for my Dad for his birthday - no luck so I will need to go out again tomorrow or Friday 

My pdoc appointment went quite well - we discussed a little what we had looked at in DBT and then we talked about a couple of things that have been weighing me down over the last week or so - it was very helpful to be able to get some of that out - again though, I did hold back the extent of some of my thoughts but she got the idea as much from what I was saying as from what I didn't say - she is quite perceptive! We talked very openly though about sadness and that being my primary emotion and what kind of narrative I tell myself when I am feeling like that - nothing I did not already know but the validation does help. I know you guys here all see when I am in that hopeless position and you all really help me to get through that - that is invaluable to me when I cannot do it all on my own - and I agreed with my pdoc that it is ok to feel like that at times and she is happy that I have the resources available to help me at those difficult times.

Despite it being a very long and draining day I am doing ok at the moment - I don't expect that to last all night once the adrenalin wears off but I will use my safety plan and the forum to get through.