You are right @outlander
You shouldn't have to explain yourself to them - to start off with it's not of the bf's business - it's not your mother's business either- but I understand her wanting to know
But - she doesn't want to know - she thinks you are blaming her - which you are - and that what is happening to you is not her fault - which a lot of it is - d'uh - I had a mother like that - aw - sheesh - that's bad
I get her bitchiness here - waiting for her bf to come home for reinforcements - tell her to shut the hell up - scream it if possible - and grab your important stuff and walk out - I know you have no one else to go but you can leave the scene to avoid the confrontation
I know you are falling into a hole with all the arguing and shit - so would I - but here's the thing - with all this going on your anger is going inside and really deep and causing your depression, shakes, chills - everything. It's causing your thoughts to be focused on the negative - which is totally normal and I have been there - but didn't get depressed cause I would walk out or scream a lot - depending on the situation - maybe I was depressed - anyway.
I am not going anywhere just now - I had a shower then soaked my foot and redressed it - so that has been done I can stay here for the time being - when is the bitch coming home? Would it be easier for you to deal with her without the bf? What do they do? Do they lean over you shouting? Brow-beating? What can they do
First thing is to conceal that medication and refuse to give it up - this is all you can do for yourself - it's horrible to be where you are now and I am thinking about you
Dec
